In need of this Outlet

2011-01-17T07:57:00.002+08:00

Clocking in very minimal hours of sleep.

I cant deny that i'm feeling the anxiety, i need to work!!

But i'm getting nowhere, frustrating indeed.

I hope being stubborn with my ideals will pay off, real soon.

2011-01-08T14:09:00.003+08:00

Whole again :D

Me
My family
Poh Sze Ying is coming back! finally!

Loneliness was ever existent throughout these months without her and bro.
All these years, i thought they were dependent on me. Only after they had embarked onto their respective path that it hit upon me that, I'm very much dependent on them as well. Without them to share my life, I seem to be lost, like in a deep dark hole.

I'm going to fetch her & .... myself back home :)

2010-10-15T02:19:00.002+08:00

I know i'm supposed to be working/rewriting my cover letter! But the following is so much more impt to be noted for FUTURE usage!!!

If all work out, i hope that i will be able to deliver the following speech.

Never had I seen my friend so seriously considering all aspects and possibilities. Basically she was in a dilemma. I'm happy to see that though as i know that for the so many years that i had knew her, she was actually taking this seriously.

The past should not hinder her, as people move forward, carrying lessons learnt. All the past jerks are undeserving of her anyway, why should they be the stumbling blocks in her pursuit for the ONE?

At this moment, my feelings are beyond happiness. She had mustered the courage and that he, who is standing right beside her is indeed the ONE. He is the perfect (ok, maybe near 98%) one, caring without over-intruding, 'respectful', knowledgeable, looks (not too bad right) and so many more traits that everyone is looking for. Can I say that he is considered as near-extinct?

To be continued ~ still under observation

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2010-05-23T23:22:00.003+08:00

THANK YOU, Dr Goh Keng Swee.

I regret not knowing you, your contributions to our nation, my HOME before your demise.

I teared reading the tribute to you on last saturday morning, out of sadness, admiration and boundless thankfulness. Thinking to myself, what a great man you were, your foresight, intelligence and determination were what had built our home. You retired before I was born, the years that you put in your ALL were problematic and difficult, I know, though I wasn't there. I can imagine the efforts you had put in wholeheartedly, it wasnt easy, you must had sacrificed certain parts of your life. Thank you.

The younger generation, my brothers and cousins in their teens may not understand how important you were, but i DO and i'm sure many out there as well and our younger generation will come to realise as they matures, reading more about you.

I hope that you will be included in the history books for our future generations to get to know you, and your massive contributions, making them understand how Singapore, our home, will not be what it's like without YOU. AND, of course to encourage their belonging to Singapore, just like your LOVE for the nation and the people, US.

Thank you, Dr Goh, ~ rest in peace ~

2010-05-11T23:42:00.002+08:00

My heart ia aching. The good thing is, and the best way to treat my wound, to give up on her.
why should i bother, care about her? Guess i'm just too used to this responsibility.

i kind of know how my mum feels right now. Sorry mum.

SHe will only THINK of me when she needs help. What had she done right? Seldom, other than being the smartest. Wrong? countless times. And the best part is, she will somehow be able to turn the situation around, protraying herself as the victim, oh my, and stupid me will just forgive her over and over again.

ELDEST SISTERS ARE ALL DUMBOS.

Anyway, I wish her well, as i am so sure that i will not be crossing the same paths as her.

pfft.

2010-01-04T09:00:00.002+08:00

I pray for my dear friend, ah fu's happiness, good health and blissful love always.

2009-11-04T23:41:00.002+08:00

Low, that's what i'm feeling for the past few weeks.

A sucky feeling, other people's lives seems more fulfilling than mine. argh, what am I doing?

This is so not ME.

I just wish for perfection, but things never go my way.

I need to cheer up; buck up, do something about my LIFE

2009-09-12T13:28:00.000+08:00

Going back bought back lotsa memories. And surprisingly, they are all fond despite e seemingly resources lacking school.

All e fun times with them, it's them that had made up for the obvious lack and constant disappointment tat I had in e school. After these years, I'm still very thankful for having them in my uni life.

The bus-taking, canteen, toilets, benches, lifts n even e smell of 2 n a half yrs are all so familiar though faraway in the past. Ahh! Shld have visited e discussion rooms! Haha.

I believe that cloudy will enjoy school as much as I had n excel here! Gambadae ne, cloudy-san! :)

Come to think of It, it's not the academics that we acquire in poly or uni, it's more of the experiences n exposure tat u gained tat will create e impact in one's life

2009-08-10T03:29:00.001+08:00

Bury these emotions, i cross my heart
Move on, i cross my heart
Hope is useless, i know

There's no point, no blossoming, yes, i know, the cross will be there to stay.

2009-07-09T02:26:00.000+08:00

staying at home these two days deepen my loneliness. nobody nagging me, walking around, worrying about the TV volume and etc.

had still been imagining that they will walk out from their room, him with his cane, her being carried by auntie. these images just popped up whenever i turned.

i miss you two. still.

We as humans are actually quite apt at adapting to changes. it's all about a new/improved environment where we hypnotise ourselves that these changes are for a better reason or we just know that things can never go back to before.

Now should be the time for me to grow up, do this thing tt i shld have taken a more active step long ago. Scary how loneliness can make you do things that iyou will never imagine.

2009-04-27T08:00:00.000+08:00

APRIL 2009

A month of losses, separation. i/we had to say three major goodbyes. From a crowded household of 8, we are reduced to 5. i no longer have to buy food to feed an army. i can feel that i am losing it, the pain is endless and e gaping hole in my heart will never be filled.

i love my grandmother and grandfather very lots much. i had never realised it till now. i was too engrossed, too involved in my friends when i was schooling, and too workaholic when i started work. how could i ever not known how to appreciate them better when they are still with us? i was seldom home and this will be my regret from the rest of my life.

i had to document my very last memories of them down here and my current emotions now as i have this ability to bury my sorrow and slowly erasing this unwanted sad memory.

April 3rd - my grandmother left us in her sleep in the early wees of the morning silently

it was sudden, very shocking for my family. we knew that she will leave us someday as she had been sick for around 9 years. she left us with no pain. i'm glad that she will never need to eat all those pills, be bedridden nor being unable to communicate with us. how i wish that i had been there in her last moments, telling her things, what we had been up to in all these years and that she dont need to worry about us.

At the point when i was awaken at 7am from my mum's and auntie binti's cries, it was beyond belief. it seems like a bad dream. i could only cry, all of us could just cry beside her. i kiss her cold face goodbye. thereafter, i went to my grandfather, who was sitting in his wheelchair, head facing down in the living room alone. i hugged and sobbed into him, telling him that his wife had left us. my grandfather, HE, was so so strong, he consoled me, just telling me that it's ok... i can only continue weeping and telling him that we are still here for him..

the funeral ended after three days, i promised my gm that i'll be there for my grandfather always. he was grieving, sobbing like a child from time to time. he asked me weird questions about my grandmother and that his life is shorthening as well. he was warded the night before the wake, he never came to see my grandmother in the casket..he just couldnt.

Grief stayed throughout, however, i know that i still have my grandfather. i went home straight after work, stayed home on weekends so that i could be at least home. This increases my interactions with him, increases the leg massages, water bottle filling, flipping him in bed. but he was asleep most of the time and his face were getting more frail each day.

A week after my gm passed on, my gf was acting weird, putting four layers of blanket. and he keep saying goodbye amidst an impending thunderstorm, with me and my bro, my aunt crying beside him. i keep massaging his heart, hugging him and at a certain point, i just laid on him, begging him not to leave me. He just suddenly spoke, saying that yes yes, he wont leave. miraclously, he suddenly recovered. i was so relieved yet guilty and worried at the same time. i thought to myself that he might be better off without all the physical and emotional pain. After this episode, i will keep popping into his room to check on him from time to time, making sure he is comfortable. though it was stil our dearest binti who was doing most of the job.

April 21st - my grandfather left us at approx 4am in the hospital

i wasnt there, none of us were there for his last moment. The last time i saw him were on sunday morning when he asked me to call my aunt as he wants to say goodbye. i was half worried only cos he had been saying that for quite a while. i stroked his face and heart that he shouldnt say that and that things will be ok. i wiped his eyes, said goodbye as i am going for my jap test. i told him i will be back soon. he said goodbye to me, waving his hand limply with a tight smile on his face. That was my last memory of my beloved grandfather.

i never visited my grandfather when he was admitted into his last hospital stay on sunday evening. i hate myself for not visiting and had replayed the possible scenario if i had been there. i want to be there to tell him that everything is ok and we will take care of ourselves and that he can now join my grandmother..and to thank him for being my best grandfather. He was such a good man, a good family man, husband to everyone of us and he really loved my grandmother very much.

i hope that they are now at peace, and together living happily. though i'm still greiving, please please ignore my tears. i just couldnt stand the fact that both of you are no longer here. i'm sorry that i couldnt had done more when you were alive, i'm sorry for all the quarrels and tantrums that i had thrown.

auntie binti had also went to work at golden tooth uncle's. i guess gong gong will be relieved to know that as he will know that she is in good hands. i will like to thank all the aunties who had taken care of my gong gong and po po.. thank you!

gong gong, po po, good bye and i will never forget you, both of you will always be in my heart and i promise that i will still keep everyone together as a family. I LOVE YOU.

To myself when i read this again: never ever repeat the mistake of not realising the most important persons in your life. Once lost, you will never be able to retrieve it again

2008-08-30T00:34:00.000+08:00

We are finally GRADUATES!

Congrats to Chin Adine, Fu Yanling, Huang Shuying, Say Meng Lee, Pauline and Poh Sze Hui!

Going back to school just reminds me so much about e 2 and a half years with them! All those times are just simply classic and unforgettable...

Let's keep the promise that we will not stop meeting up.. We must always find a reason to meet up and of course, always being there for each other, just like the way we were there for each other up till today.

Today signifies the closure of our uni life and quoting Ah say's dad, it's the start of the hard part of life, or putting in a nicer way, a new phase of our lives. Let's all move on beautifully...

Cheers once again! and cheers to our next phase of life :)

PS: Congrats to Dooooris, Grace and Sok Wan for their degree with distinctions!! :)

2008-06-02T07:09:00.000+08:00

so glad. very relieved.

Though it's not the very best, i knew that i had tried my best.
I had been thinking how to do it better next year. If i'm given this awards dinner next year again, i'm sure gonna make it better, and different from all the past years.

Some major changes might happen in the company. it will affect my team greatly. I hope that it will not become a reality and we will still be together. I'm very grateful for the friendship and bond with my few teammates now. Without each other's support, we will not be able to get by all those terrible months.

The past two weeks before this awards had set me thinking if i'm cut out for this field.
Let me have a break and think this thru.

I need my friends now to get thru all these. i really appreciate my friends' existence.

Cheers :)

2008-03-24T14:19:00.000+08:00

I guess time do really change people, our perceptions and feelings.
Those that i had thought will be eternity had been proven wrong recently.
Though this is saddening, I am accepting this and will move on.

Prob the other party will not feel likewise as there are other things that are of more importance. In any case, I appreciate the fact that eternity was thought as a possibilty.

Back from India, another heavily populated country. Different culture, lots of boo-boos and many unforgettable learning experiences.

Another big show coming up in April. Many OTs to come. I wish for less boo-boos onsite.

Juliet will be leaving for USA soon. Feel bad that i hadn't been able to meet her for the past few months. This coming meet up is a must for our last chance to catch up. Another dear fren going somewhere far off to pursue her dreams..

2008-02-11T03:45:00.000+08:00

New Year with loads of blessings!

Happy new year to all! May e rat year bring you lots for you to root bout!
Chinese new year this yr had kinda lose the gong xi gong xi feel. I dunno if it's just me or its the whole atmosphere. Greetings were just limited to a mere 'Happy new year' and activities are just the usual '21 dian' and eating.
And as usual, the supposingly long chi new yr break is ending abruptly today. It's back to the real life of work work and more work. So depressing hor! haha. But i'm all geared up.

I had a terrible dream yest. Pretty silly and i think i had such dreams a couple of times before. It's.... bout me being late for work. and it's not just a couple of hrs. I was late for the whole day and i only managed to call my boss few mins before the end of the day. Argh, what a dream.. i was really worried that i will lose my job.
Thus, I had decided to set my chi new year resolutions.

1) Be on time for work, gatherings and whatever occasions
2) Attain driving license
3) Save up!! No more owing of $$
4) Spend more time with family and friends. I can't let my work affect my personal life. gotta show my 'neighbour' that it is possible.
5) and many more.. It's time to plan wisely for my future, both personal and work wise!

:D Gong Xi Gong Xi everyone!!

2007-12-20T06:00:00.000+08:00

On my 1st day of 'freedom', I had to visit a dentist who talk to me in some medical language that I'm completely clueless bout. Only thing i know, i had to pop pills for the next 2 days and go for the surgery on fri nite. My 'stupid' wisdom tooth had been causing me pain for the past two days, both in my mouth and wallet. Freaking expensive!!! Yest's dentist quoted me $500 - $800 for my tooth. Today's dentist quoted me $300 - $600. Luckily, i din do it yest as the today's dentist said that it's better to do it when my swelling had subsided. Hai, the dentist yest was just out to earn my money man. anyway, before i had any surgery, i already spent 150 bucks on X-ray, painkillers and such. I'm officially very broke. With money already spent for office christmas gifts and impending christmas gifts for frenz and family, I really dunno how to survive thru the last days of 2007. and I do really wan to go on the short trip wif HC and gals:(

I really hate my tooth!

2007-12-10T14:10:00.000+08:00

For Ah fu.. he's as usual, at his best! :D

2007-12-04T15:51:00.000+08:00

I'm off to my hometown and will be back on fri.
May all be well and I can survive this.
Aja aja!! :D

2007-12-01T17:36:00.000+08:00

Challenges - I will learn to face them. Be it if i fail or get thru it, I'm bound to learn something from it. I'm definitely looking forward to all these. In a way, this is what I had dreamt of. Though this causes some visible stress on my face, these are just minor sacrifices man. haha.
I'm so gonna make it! haha. I'm gonna fight all the mean ppl and win the war with the kind ppl. Well.. This is reality.

2007-11-07T14:52:00.000+08:00

WOOOSH..AH! That's it. It's the start of my next 30 years in the wooorking world! Aja aja...:)

2007-11-06T22:03:00.000+08:00

Can you think of and describe a situation where you’ve been creative/innovative and come up with ideas that are a bit out of the ordinary?

?????

2007-11-01T21:06:00.000+08:00

I can't seems to fall asleep. so weird. How can? i should be super relaxed after the final exam yest. Unexpectedly, there wasnt any hurray aft the last exam though its the end of our studies as it's actually the start to another stage. I'm currently in a denial stage, i don't want to face the prospect of startin work a week later. I'm so gonna miss out on so many things. Need to run all my errands and meet up wif peeps within this wk!

Know it sounds crazy but i really feel like continuing to study, doin projs and sit for exams. These are so much easier.

2007-10-12T12:12:00.000+08:00

i'm totally very very unsatisfied with IBM's customer warranty service. argh!

First, i found unknown progs in my laptop aft i sent in for repair of the lcd screen. Then, they ask me to reformat my hard disc and it become so lagged till it need 2hrs for warming up. Crazy or wat. 2hrs???? do i look as if i got so much free time to wait for this machine which was supposed to be a high peformance machine. bullshit man. i trusted that this will be a good brand with good after-sales service. Then, they wanted to charge me for reformatting. Don't they get it? i already tried reformatting, following their advice but it doesnt work AT ALL. They spoiled my blackie and still dare to charge me. NEVER in a million years and guess what did the girl say? it's out of goodwill that we will not charge you after discussion with the management. goodwill my foot, its your mistake!

Guess i should had purchase other brands instead which are cheaper but with better service. Take for instance, Ah fu's HP.

Crapped man. and the switchboard woman was sooo rude. i got missed calls from that ibm number. How will i noe who called me? can't u just say in a nicer tone? what kind of receptionist are you??? receptive, my foot.

Totally pissed. They better cure my dearie blackie to its 'high-performing' status dis time round .

2007-10-01T07:37:00.000+08:00

My vocabulary is very limited. I dunno how to explain my turbulent feelings. 2 1/2 years had just passed by like, how sld i say? Lighting. It had been like SG's weather, 5/8 sunny, 2/8 thunderous and 1/8 windy. Surrounded by wonderful friends, getting to know them like I had never. They are the only ones i couldnt let go and also the cause for my sadness at this point. It's not like we will never meet anymore but memories just keep holding me back. Thinking of my impending future without them around, their support, jokes, laughter, accompaniment, will I still be able to move on? Will our friendship still remain the same? Once again, i became friends-dependent but i'll not weep and be strong with you guys.

W/o them to chope seats, lending me notes, completing proj cos of my chix pox and all the hours of waiting for me to start proj, i wouldnt had been here. THANK YOU! and deeply apologetic for all the hours wasted cos of my lateness..

I will never forget the time we spent together; all the encouragement, our dark sleeping bags, tiredness, sleepless nites, people staring, losing of voices, backaches, interesting info & gossips, jokes, overuse jokes, lameness, ah beng/lian mouses, lappys, plugs, late hours, games, best friends, food, tibits, dinno's fishy comics, study rooms, ktvs, the bugis/natl library trips, toilet aunties & meetings and many many more that we SHARED & EXPERIENCED together.

May our friendship last eternally just like pauline's meaningful gift of collage and that everybody will have a great future that we'll be building, accompanied by all the memories and knowledge we had attained together :) Toast to my crazy friends (CF)/SIM peeps! I will miss you guys lots. It had been the best 2 1/2 years:)

Love,
Sze Hui/ah bo/hup/hui/jus =)

I'm not too sure bout the complete version of, 'Roses are red, violets are blue' But i did find one in my autograph bk from years back.

Birds fly high

Hard to catch

Friends like you

Hard to find

haha. how poetic we were in those days!

2007-09-27T13:37:00.000+08:00

As I travel my journey through life
I try to remember to be grateful for the things that are really important
I want you to know that one of the greatest blessings in my life is my friendship with you.
You are the person I call when I need to talk and I know that you will be there sometimes to 'just listen'.
You are the person that I can laugh with about the most important life events. You 'know me' and that saves words sometimes....
Thank you for sharing your friendship with me.
You are truly my best friend.

That's all anyone can ask for. You know who you are. I'm blessed:)

2007-09-20T16:27:00.000+08:00

*Tolerance+++++++*

i really cannot stand this type of people. If you want to do it, go ahead and do it. and stop trying to protray that you are the only busy one around and the others are just shitty free. The world just doesnt revolve around you solely. I dunno what was wrong with me to think that you are not that bad afterall. I don't want to share any similarities with you, never now nor ever. That disgusted feeling bout you just came flowing back again. arghhh!

2007-09-10T13:51:00.000+08:00

I believe it is my best decision made so far. I'm still a free spirit afterall. Guess i really overestimated or tried to deceive myself that i had changed.

Feel kinda bad that i din go for Melissa's baby shower but the naps had made me feel much better after the turbulent week. Yippee! :) Will definitely find time to meet up with her and her baby gal!!!

Got a haircut with ying yest. well.. not really a cut since there aint much difference & a post celebration for her bdae. oh my, the food really sucks. But well, the angels company made up for that. Happy birthday once again, my dear friend:) Ratatouille was really ratty but pretty awesome at the end. The only cartoon that i was looking forward to and din fall asleep even though it was pretty boring initially.

Before our cut at WARS!

The not-so-good food BUT very sweet company!

hAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
More pics will come when HC passed them around. These are the minimal pics i managed to take despite all the inteferences!! But wad can i say? everyone still look sweet despite their 'evilness'! haha

2007-09-09T03:09:00.000+08:00

Kinda mountain tortoise but never knew that french language will sounds sooo gud in rappy songs. Its soo groovy as compared to the chi version by 'small pig' which i feel... sounds so beng. kinda cannot stand him who keep lamenting bout how gud he is and how hard he train for e dance in e 'bet on it' mv. when, in my opinion, there isnt much dancing in the 1st place. haa. he sld look at aaron bef sayin all these man. hee :P

The song pretty sounds like a 'updated' version of michael jackson's era of songs man.
Anyway, here's e french version. cant wait to see hsm2, i BET that it will be as gud or even better than HSM1!!!

2007-08-27T17:42:00.000+08:00

i'm very awake now. VERY! All thanks to the 2hrs nap i took after dinner. Wat a peaceful nap man. No disturbances which is so seldom in my super noisy poh's family. Well, it was all explained when i awoke, shanghai knights! Only jackie chan's has this appeal man. wait! i must correct myself, it only works on the 2 Mr Pohs.

Anyway, i missed houses of harmony. Luckily, part 2 will be showed tml. Yippee, i finally won't miss part 2. Hadnt been able to catch it despite the constant re-runs on SCV. Haha. but now, finally, i can watch it on the local channel.

Had great fun yest nite wif sim peeps. think shed some kilos aft all the jittering and constant walkabouts yest. haha. will post the pics once i receive them. * i LIKE ah fu's shimmering pics slideshow. Starry starry! and i think i know which are the pictures that she like most. :) heehee

My right eye is twitching now. Being super awake, i decided to find out the cause of my twitching.

Found this webby that actually tell us the myth behind the our twitching at different timings of the day. *Very interesting. Previously, i only remember somethin bout good/bad luck that is associated with the left/right eye twitching. Never knew there were more to this myth.

Check it out: http://www.geocities.com/fengshuiprofessional/twitchingeye.htm

And being very rational...presenting the scientific explanation: http://www.eyecaresource.com/conditions/eye-twitching/causes.html

Mmh. the dry eye part might be true but 'fatigue and lack of sleep' are totally untrue. *for now.

Just conquered another korean serial today. I'm off to start another and hopefully, it will make me sleep. haha. I always have the tendency to fall asleep in front of my fav blasting companion.

2007-08-17T15:30:00.000+08:00

Looking up at the clear sky when i alighted from 52, instead of taking my normal hasty steps home, i slowed down, the beauty of the dusk make me realise.. realise how lucky that i'm able to see.

It hits me at that point that it is possible that i might lose this gift. i dunno where did this fear came from. Cos of the mysterious redness in my eyes? Cos of my insecurites? Cos i don't even recognise myself in the mirror?

It's relaxing that i haven had work for a while but its pretty weird after the fully packed previous semester.. work, school, projects which filled up my every minute. I prefer that life.

'I dunno le' had been my favourite line recently, seems that my brain is really in need of some restruturing and tonics. Argh, now i'm trying to remember this chim word from our morning discussions but i just can't.

Ok. enuff, i think i'm losing it.

2007-08-11T16:52:00.000+08:00

A lil tribute to my dearie lesbian fren, Ms Daphne Kwan Sze Hua that is, i hope, smiling in the Land of Smiles. Though we r not celebrating ur birthday on your special day, i reckon its pretty cool to be celebrating in a foreign land. Well, it kinda fulfill ur wish of travelling out on ur birthday, rite? Haa, though, of course, its not the exact description of ur wish.

Nevertheless, i'll like to wish u a super delightful birthday with a wunnerful year ahead with surprises, happiness and blissfulness (mmh, they all kinda seems to have the same meaning ya? haa. but I know u will get what i'm trying to say..)

Daphne Kwan, a fren that just seems to be heaven sent, someone who is total opposite of me but who can understand and click with me, her opposite.

Mmh..Words to describe her: Attractive, cool, super street-smart, independent, very 'onz', somewhat irritating &....... so ah lian (ok..just sometimes la)!

She had been this pattern from as long as I knew her, but no matter wat, even if u gonna change one day, i'm still gonna LOVE u the same. Ooh. ppl r so gonna start speculating bout my sexual disposition.

Finally, a belated birthday song for YOU, one & only for u!!
Happy birthday to u, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to Ms Kwan, happy birthday to you!!!! Muackz :) Now..u know what i meant by we are complete opposites.

2007-08-11T15:43:00.000+08:00

Think i gotta swallow my words and leave them as reserves in my stomach. After reading grace's straits times with the NDP photos, i realised that the NDP was actually full of new and interesting stuff. The water stunts... The kites.. the commandos from the bridge... the fireworks... Oh my, i'm so gonna catch the repeat telecast.

Another add-on.. never knew that my bestie fren, ah kuek is a superstar in making. haha! pls see http://www.ndp.org.sg/home.html and u will understand what i mean.. Good job, ah kuek and SSA gang! so can feel the 'warmth' from 7hrs away!

And i saw this report which is provided by grace's straits times once again. thanks goodness that she bought today's 'HOME' section or we'll have missed this! Guess this pic is not too clear, kuek, but i just wanna show u that we all saw and read it! Guess u can see it on straits times interactive too:)

2007-08-10T14:50:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday, Singaporeans!!

Was looking forward to this year TV telecast of NDP. The anticipation was created from the disappointment that i couldnt get tickets to watch NDP live in even any of the previews and also of the new venue.

But alas. i fall asleep for the 1st half of the parade. For the 2nd half of the parade, i was engrossed with my dinner. I only remembered watching Kit Chan and the fireworks. And that was the only times that i remembered my whole family gathering in front of the tv.

I'm not sure if the change in venue had dampen my spirits for this year's NDP. The venue which is much smaller makes the parade lost the majestic and 'Singaporean' touch that had always overwhelmed me when i attend the parade in our National stadium or Padang. Though Padang is also a smaller venue, the feeling was still there.

This year's parade seems like an over-the-top display of Sentosa's musical fountain. Even the fireworks doesnt seems to be lighting up the sky.

We even caught bored students who perform with pure sian-ness. It was the funniest part of the evening.

Nevertheless, the lightings still amaze me. Other than this, i'm sorry to say that despite the huge amount of efforts, its a huge disappointment.

I believe that if changes are made to the NDP program, lesser ppl will be travelling out during this long hols break. Instead of always having the parachuters, followed by march-in, costumed kids forming images, singing of the theme song and finally fireworks, there could be more ignition of creativity into the program. I sooo can memorise the program flow.

Let's show that Singapore can be creative too!!

But no matter wat, I still heart this little red dot, my home...and NDP serve the purpose of reminding me of this.

2007-08-08T12:14:00.000+08:00

All the while, he was talking about catapult and i tot he was talking about kettle pot. Same pronunciation but two words that have complete different meanings. This show the great difference between the two of us and also the size and simplicity of my mind. I din realise my mistake till he tells me that he need to shoot some fire balls through the 'kettle pot'. At that point, i was still wondering if he or his lecturer is crazy to think of shooting fire balls thru a 'kettle' which is just meant for boiling water. Haa! how funny!

His catapult My kettle pot

Dun ask me why am I this dumb. Sometimes, i can't believe myself as well

2007-08-08T09:30:00.000+08:00

Just testing... but its a nice song :)

2007-08-07T12:43:00.000+08:00

I was once again touched by the love protrayed by Lam fung in La Femme Desperado. Besides their huge age difference and regardless of the span of years where they din meet, his love still prevails and remain strong. I'm totally won over by him. However, this type of love and guy will cease to exist in today's world.

Thumb's up to his acting skills and thanx to ying who intro me to the show or else i'll never bother watching and will miss in witnessing such pure love.

2007-07-13T10:09:00.000+08:00

COOL! the best word to describe Melbourne. The weather is wunnerful, even with harsh winds attacking my face the whole time. The scary tales i heard of the coldness are totally unfounded. i absolutely love it. think i'll get heatstroke when i get back.
Shopping had been what i have been doing the past 2 days. The fashion is not that bad afterall. and i think winter wear is so cool. Ppl can just wear layers of clothes without looking out of place and to me, they are absolutely cool. It's just too bad that we'll be sweaty freaks if we ever try this in spore.
Tempted to buy boots. we'll see.
Cassie brought me to my first DFO today. I'm such a country bumpkin. Before visiting it, tot that it will be a messy and factory looking place. Yet, it dont look like that at all. It just look like a normal shopping place with discounts. I just keep buying $10 tops. :) Well, but what really irritates me is where i waste my time in the fitting rooms where i kept repeating the process of stripping and rewearing the layers of clothes i have.
Anyway, Cassie is exactly the way that kuek describes. Very sweet and really show genuine care for people.
I'm getting used to the weather, think i can start wearing summer clothes out. haha.. AS IF! The sky is rather dark now, though its only 6 plus. Guess this is just the only negativity bout Mel. Wanted to extend my stay but the next avail flight is the 24th which is far too late. I just gotta maximise my stay as far as possible.
haa, I'm so displaying signs of boredom. Can't wait for kuek to end her retest tomorrow. Really hope that it will be a much better paper than her previous and that she will get through it!
Waiting to go for dinner! yippee. its time for real food :)

-End of report-

2007-07-10T16:23:00.000+08:00

No one can imagine my thankfulness for this gift.
This gift is expensive not just in its cost but also the value. The value of our friendship.
The meaning and value of this gift far surpasses the monetary value.
Thank you, my dearest best friend. You are the best GIFT i will ever have.

While reflecting on this gift, our friendship, I chanced upon the new National song. The particular verse:
This is where my family
And my friends grew up with me
So I'll cross the skies and sail the seas
To be where i wanna be
A patriotic song which also reflects my growth becos of you.

And also, just an add-on.
Don't fret, you will definitely be rewarded for your hard work in one way or another. I'll loan you all my luck for you-know-what:)

2007-07-03T01:40:00.000+08:00

A break after a long while.

Tutu bro and sis finally can catch Fantastic 4 aka F4 at causeway point, where timings are really limited with the much-anticipated Transformers being screened.

First, tutu sis waited for tutu bro for close to an hr at junrong station. tutu bro din noe, went ahead to causeway point 1st. anyway, tt's alrite, since he can wait in the queues 1st.

Second, bro is short of cash, i managed to reach in time to pay. The ticketer asked if it is fine if there r only 1st row left. I was thinking tt it's really weird that F4 is still so popular after two wks on screen. nevertheless, i just bought the tix with no questions amidst the long queues and squeeziness.

Third, i was so hungry that i had to buy and devour the popcorn with my tutu bro. I went to the washroom, and when i came back, i tot that i saw the preview for Transformers. eh.. but no.. it wasnt a PREVIEW. It was the show itself. oh my, here goes my F4.

I was rather pissed with the kuku ticketer who must had assumed that the whole world came for Transformers. But come on, i'm not those common ppl who wan catch the latest show on the very 1st day.

Nevertheless, the show was awesome. woo.. i LIKE! though its the very 1st row and i was in the theatre with a bunch of sweaty young kids, the show really bring me back to those days. Those days when i dun really like cartoons but know that robots can be differentiated using their eye colours. The evil ones will definitely have red eyes and menacing look.

Anyway, going back to the 'fourth'!

Fourth, after the show, with aching necks, my bro and i went down the levels to find washroom. It's ages since we visit causeway point. It was then tt we saw a young kid crying his guts out near the escalator. Everybody else was just staring. Well, me being me, i just went up to the kid, soothe him, carry him and keep trying to console him in whatever baby languages i know. We found the information counter, 6 levels down and passed him to the info counter gal. A few announcements were made, the parents were nowhere to be seen. I was worried sick that it was a case of abandonment. At that point of time, the boy cried again. The tutu info counter gal just continue to sit the boy on her lap. Come on, she should just carry him la! I was almost about to cry out at tt point when looking at his reddish and wet face. Anyway, i just carry him up and YES, he really stop crying.

While carrying him, i was thinking the what-ifs. if the parents dun come by, i'll bring the boy home. It was then i heard a voice, a 'daddy's' voice.

The cutey boy and his very calm dad is reunited.

Fifth, we can finally visit the washroom after nearly an hour.

This incident just reminded me and my frenz about the cardboard carrying at jurong point. Am i always this impulsive? haha

Anyway, hail to the transformers, heros of the world. and i will still wan to catch F4 this week. NO MORE MISTAKES..

2007-06-24T19:25:00.000+08:00

2 months of hols are coming to an end. REST? nope..dun think i did. but yesh, at least my hard work will pay my trip to aust.

I finally finished the HK vcd tt i watched over these 3 wks. how pathetic and lil time i have. In the past, i'll be able to finish it within 2 days. Never mind bout that. anyway, 'brink of law' is really a great show, with suspenses throughout the show. Despite lack of slp and 3 esps in 1 disc, i din dozed off at any pt of time.

However, it ends with a sad endin, where the cute hero dies, leaving his wife and unborn child. It's a cruelty to her wife but yet she is brave enough to carry on her life.

i hate sad endings. read in a mag that ppl who always look forward to happy endings in shows are in actual fact, low esteemed ppl who hope that everything will be always go well.

That's who i am.

2007-04-07T16:50:00.000+08:00

E dream had left me with such a warm and SAFE feeling. I had never felt that safe bef. Will it really be the case in reality? Or will it be just in my dreams..

anyways, ooh!! so happy. my cold is so much better.

I'm 5 pieces short towards e completion of my doraemon magnet. So so thankful to everyone that had contributed to my collection. Helping me to buy sweets, mags, pizzas, drinking H2O and big gulp and giving me ya extras magnets. Thanks so very much!!!

i'm super GAY now!

I dun wan to fret over what should i write for my eval of our dear team member, 'cherry'.

I dun wan to fret over DC.

I dun wan to fret over work.

Cos i have my doraemons...heeeheee!! and yesh! i got a big one from ah fu! thanks so much!

Speaking of that, my bro was so shocked to see such a big one in e mornin. He tot that e mini one tt i rec from HC had enlarged overnight. haa!!

Hope that it will prevails in reality..

2007-03-29T14:36:00.000+08:00

Gossips are scary. Sometimes, i'll rather not hear bout it. However, when its in my ears, there is nothing i can do but to participate in it. Alarms were ringing in my mind that i must be super tactful wif whatever i reply or say as they will DEFINITELY be bought forward to other and spread around like nobody's business. super scary. i really dont like it. Well, but i gotta learn rite? Learn how to respond appropriately, know who can be trusted and who dont. At this point of time, I'm not sure if i had trust the right person cos it doesnt seems to be that simple. If she tell me all these stuff, does tt means that she's willing to share and tt i can do so as well.

Time will tell.

The school's air had been bad, bad, very bad! It was getting to our eyes, hair, face and especially ah fu's NOSTRILS! Hahhaa..

It's really time that we invest in e oxygen tanks!

In another hr, it will be our dearest dino's day!
Happy birthday to you in advance, happy birthday to you in advance, happy birthday.. happy birthday....... Happy birthday to you in advance!!

May this year be sparkling with happiness for you!

Knowing my standard, Dis is e best i can do! Hope ya know wat is it! Dis is open for everyone to guess =)

Though it will be spent in sch, but at least it will be in our lovely company! hee..

And also, a big EMBRACE to ying for joining e blogging adventure. May your updates be more than any of us!

2007-03-20T19:37:00.000+08:00

So happy! I finally managed to upload videos here. haa. I'm must be an idiot in e past. keep lamenting tt there is something wrong with blogger. ai yo. now den realise its my personal Ctrl+P prob. hee

2007-03-20T19:35:00.000+08:00

I couldnt help it. This is really funny and super duper ENTERTAINING!
I couldnt help marvel at these taiwanese guys.. but what a group name. Lollipop?
Nevertheless. This performance is a must-watch! You will lOVE it.
Look at his expressions! Tt's what entertaining is all about!

As it suddenly come to my mind, this basketball dance by one of the grp guys, I decided to watch his performance on utube bef (hitting) my pillows. But who knows, I just continued surfing ard Utube for their other performances. Though they more or less perform the same stuff in different variety shows, I feel that at least some of the group members have some commendable talents that are really showable. Their dance moves are e BEST of all!

Haa.. but cant believe that I will be hooked on by these LOLLiPOP guys AND at this time. Shit. My bro must be thinking that I'm e 2nd utube addict aft my sis. But must admit la, gt pretty cute ones inside. not of e face only but in other aspects too.

e Basketball dance (It's somewhere in e 5th min)

2007-02-27T17:35:00.000+08:00

Courtesy of kuek's fotki and the Bo's comp. Some nice ones:)

COSY!! *Picturesque*

ALL IN....almost

The 3 tier -- all time fav!

Polaroid time -- When kuek was super into it!

Can see that i'm into paint. uploading these FEW pics are really a hassle. Why is it always so!!

2007-02-26T17:07:00.000+08:00

Once again. kuek had flew BACK to aust.. Had started to miss you and will miss you lots!

All e best for ya new sem with challenges and also, i believe, FUN too! Hope tt u will reach my SIZE so that i can den decrease mine with you when u r back. haha

This time round, i did not bawled! As i said, i know i'll be working very hard to realise my promise to her! (TRUST me, peeps!)

When i woke up this morning, i had my financial plans all sorted out. I know what i want and i'll work very hard towards it.

Thanks to mamee who had agreed to be my main supporter behind my back. Muacks

I will lessen my monthly splurge, saved up in the respective accounts and try my very best to keep dis job.

Looking back at my TP intership journals, it reminded me of the times that i had difficulties drafting my short/mid/long term goals. But now i know..

Short-term goals:

Lessen my splurges and socialising (less expensive dinners, switching to kopitiam fare..TRUE frenz, pls take note!)

Take taxis less frequently = no lateness!

Mid-term goals:

Get behind the wheels officially bef e end of 2007

Save up to visit kuek

Fully utilise my last schooling year = fun, good grades and .... FUN!!

Long-term goals:

SAVE.. Look, I really finally understand the merits of saving

Now I know.. we just need an ultimate goal in mind. We'll then be able to pen down the short/mid/long term goals to reach tt ultimate.

Well, i know that a lot of you wont believe that i will succeed. To be honest, I'm not even confident if i can.

But please.. i'm really gonna try. NONO...not try, i'm gonna DO IT! :)

2007-01-16T15:05:00.000+08:00

Having the flu. I'm not gg to take my decolgen. Will try to see if i can recover on my own..crossing my fingers! Forget all those crap bout redoxan tt can keep illness at bay! maybe i sld increase my dosage to every day instead of every other day!

Yesterday was supposed to be our 1st finance class in e evenin. heard from ying and doris that e lesson had been postponed to wed and thurs! thanx for tellin me! wont even know if u all din tell me and i just assumed tt i was e last person to know. Sorry ah fu...i shouldnt had assumed! sorry tt u made a wasted trip :(

Hope that i can keep my part time job. very worried tt they will oust me out once my boss's cousin had get used to the workflow..:( praying hard tt my boss won do tt to a poor student like me! haa..but even if so, who can i blame? i should had said that i can work 3 full days instead of wanting to cheat and have one more day for rest and projs! But whatever la, if i really lose e job, i'll just have to console myself tt i should enjoy my last yr of sch life b4 embarking on to 30 years of work, work and constant work. (=

Sch will start officially tml. hope that it will be a better sem! :)

2007-01-01T07:18:00.000+08:00

So HAPPY! I can finally upload some pics frm e past 'events'. hee..i didnt need save e pics one by one thru the online album and instead, thanks to kuek, i manage to get e pics but too bad, too lil memory space in my thumb or else i can get more. Anyway, here they go... =)

1st up.. 2 DEc 06 --- Jess Yew + Thomas Tan

Congrats to Ms Yew, e 1st angel to become a MRS. Old-fashionally, I like to wish u guys happiness in your future life together. 'To put it in another way, have a blasting marriage!! However, Do not forget us!! We must forever stick together, we will be incomplete w/o you! And to Thomas, take great care of her, bestow lots of love on her!

Presenting..

Ms Jess Yew

Mr Thomas Tan

E PROPOSAL once again

Photographers of e day! Very bad example! taking pics of ourselves.. And sorry to jess, think u really got a lousy in place of ying :]

very angry at this moment. did the photobucket thingy but cant be displayed here! pissed ~ and somebody is beside me, bugging me to do it another day. tot i dunno..she just want to conquer the comp!! advising me??? your head sia!

I'm trying once again!

Ahh...i just cant do it!

Dun care! Gonna prepare to go out.. yeayea! gg to settlers tonight but this time round wif e angels.. hee

No new year resolutions this year. Everybody, wherever you are, celebrate e last day of 2006 in style to embrace e new year!

Congratulate yourself for surviving another year! Haha.. or should I say, another fruitful 365 days!

Wishing that you, YOU, yOu, yoU and everybody else will have a blasting 2007, an even more fruitful year =)

~sometimes, e conventional way is easier~

2006-12-23T02:23:00.000+08:00

Sunshine after e rain. Eveything was just a mistake! haa..I think too much. I must be less sensitive and temperless in e future. Anyway..i really wanna post all my bdae celebrations pics and thoughts but i'm so lazy to slowly save ind pics one by one! Well..by the time i save those pics, think i can post e xmas celebration photos. i'll upload nxt wk aft dis hectic xmas week.

I'll like 2 give the biggest THANK YOU to everyone who had remembered my birthday. It really means a lot to me =)

Especially to the special ones who had celebrated in PERSON with me on 14 Dec..

E KTV session

AdIno (Thanx for ya xmas card too! it's so pretty!)

Ah fu (Thanx for e special handmade card (love it!) and my 1st CAKE earring)

Ah Say (Thanx for the present u shared wif ah fu and dino)

* KTV was great fun wif u guys! mUst go together often but sad tt ah say isnt too into ktv..

E not-so-great dinner @ Essential Brews wif ATC gang

Shimin aka Chen Xiao Xiao

Daphne Kwan

Joyceee

Why did i say that it was not so great? Cos this 3 babes was just dying to get me home wif all sort of reasons. (Borrowing of vcds, wanting to get Decolgen, my fav pills) Was thinking tt it was weird that they want to get home early as they are not tt kind of ppl who will but didnt think much as they all seems to be tried wif work and sch. But... THANKS for acting and coordinating so well with the surprise gang in my hse.

Surprise Gang at BLK 1_ _, Jurong East @ 11pm

Papa

Mamee

Lao Ying

Fu Ren Jie

Ah Kuek

Ying

ah Ching

This gang waited for me to get home and i really thank them for their patience as i was really trying to stall time wif the ATC peeps so as not to get home earli.

I was truly veri surprised and super happy to be able to blow out e candles and made my wishes for my 'adulthood' minutes bef 12.

Thanks a lot to e 4 of you. I 'heart' YOU alll...........:)

2006-12-17T20:30:00.000+08:00

I should be happily typing my happy thoughts for my 21st bdae. But instead, i had never felt worse than ever. I dunno how to start but it's all caused by my still unchanged childlish, unreasonable, untactful temper, character even after hitting the big 21. I should have just controlled my temper, dun blurt out e nonsense and everything will end with a perfect ending. My birthday would had been perfect, i would be happy and they will be as well. However, becos of my short temper, all these had become a big IMPOSSIBILITY! Was reflecting on my way home, should i just call kuek to apologise? But does that turn things over or make things worse? And i reasoned that there's no point in doing that as i had already spoiled everything. Nothing, NOTHING can remove the hurt i instilled in kuek, HC and ying, after the lots and lots of effort they put into for my bdae and also, their presence throughout my life all these years.

Truly disappointed..from HC..yes i noe. This pricked deep into my heart. But i guess, its not as deep for them, especially ah kuek.

Come to think of it, I seems to be always hurting ah kuek. On e few occasions that i had flared, it seems to be always targeted towards her. I know it's wrong but being so close to her, i always have no reserves and qualms abt speaking out real crudely with her. Why must i always hurt the one closest to me?

I do not want to give any excuses for myself. I know I sld had understand the facts first but i was just too hasty. However, i really dunno what was going on. Before e movie, they had been pushing my name ard for the xmas present exchange. I know its a joke as i'm always picky. Thus, the person tt need 2 buy my present will have a major headache. I dunno who is it but i presume it was kuek who need to buy for me. And conincidentally, I was to buy for her. Once i picked her name, I was ecstatic that i can buy for her aft everything she and her family had done for me! and especially for it was for HER! & was contemplating what to buy for her as she gt almost everything and the little time left to buy. However, even knowin that it was just our usual joke (not wanting to be e one to buy my present), i still feel kinda sad as i was so eager to get e xmas gift for her and for the others as well. But i din say anythin and just luff it off. I should have just done the same thing when they mentioned again aft e movie. Too bad, the spoiler me just couldnt keep my damn mouth close and the damage was done with me saying, ' i know u dun wan to buy for me and ....' i forgot what else i say but i know i had been unreasonable.

I'm laughing at myself now. They sure won have any probs buying anything for me as they already bought 21 for me. What more can I ask for friends like them, organising surprises, buying e 21 presents, going to the zoo? They had truly wasted their time, effort and energy on someone as lousy as me.

To be honest, i am really picky bout stuff. i got great specifications bout things i like. It's not the price or brand. I dun go for that. It's just that i just need to have a good feeling bout that something. The thing is, nobody know, that even if the thing doesnt suit me, i never ever throw them away, i treasure them as it represents each and every fren and occasion. Even if i dun use it, it doesnt mean that i hate it, or maybe yes, i dun like it but the thought and person behind it make all the difference. I just need to improve on my initial response. My initial response maybe disappointing but i'll be truly thankful for having the present but it will had been too late as the giver would had been hurt by me.

Anyway, going back, i being so straightforward and them who understand me so well, will know from my obvious expression if i like or dislike somethin. So ..after all the years of presents exchanging, they had understand my pickiness and thus, the JOKE. I don't mind being the butt of jokes as it's really my own fault for being so picky and truthful in my expressions. But i just cant help showing my real emotions but i definitely had been trying to master the art of showing one perfect expression. Nevertheless, they still can see thru me at times as i cant help showing my true emotions in front of these best buddies.

Whether or not anybody believes, I had felt real bad immediately after shooting off.

I had remorsed and i apologise for what i had said. I hope tt i can have the chance to make it up but think the chances are nearing zero as they might not even want to see my stupid face or hear my dumb voice again. Writing this is not in the aim of hoping for your forgiveness but it's to serve as a constant reminder.

Happy days are gone after the destruction.

Hope that everyone will have a great xmas and have one less lousy friend like me.

2006-12-07T23:19:00.000+08:00

Refreshing? Nodding hard? Haha..i am! Wanted something different from my usual green one and to my own surprise, i choose this skin ! Might be a bit too cute but just bear wif it! i'll change it once i'm in e mood 2 change to my long awaited doraemon's! :D

Anyway, think i forgot to mention something real 'shakening', Ms Kuek Ah Rong is back! (kinda outdated la, she had been back close to 3 wks!) She gave all of us a great surprise and she made me lie so as to get off work and to acc her on her 1st day back! But wat to do, she's my 'best friend' and anyway, i'm way too excited to concentrate on e work if I really did went back to work. Interested parties, please view www.xanga.com/maameemoo to read bout her surprise tactics!

Ah kuek, WELCOME BACK once again! Hahahaha.. This time round, we will do whatever u wan before u go back next yr once again :( (:

2006-12-07T23:17:00.001+08:00

How I wish tt everybody can be bald! We dun need to worry bout haircuts and which hairstylists to trust! I hate this procedure which i need to go thru almost every 3 mths as I really cant stand feeling my hair near my neck. (So irritating and itchy!) Tot I had found a good hairstylist aft e prev dye and cut a few mths back (which i was rather satisfied with) But alas.. it wasnt the case yest. My hair is disastrous nw! I look like a kid with a weird hairdo that is too flat... ahhh..KILL ME PLs! Maybe I shouldnt had contributed too much comments bout his haircutting techniques and asking him to give me a new hairstyle. Well..an advice tt I must write down to remind myself for my next haircut! [Never, NEVER ask for a new hairstyle when ya face aint tt pretty!!] I always try to remind myself this as it highly applies to me! But I just dun learn my lessons. I just want changes even though it always turn out BAD!

However, it might also be my low confidence and not of the hairstylist. Whatever!..in 3 mths time, i'm going to make my rounds to ask for recommendations again [or I'll go back to e same guy again? :( ] To be honest, I had really tried quite a num of hairstylists, ranging from real exp ones to cheap ones. The exp ones may make me feel tt my hair looks kinda nice cos of e price but i'll always experience post cut dissonance cos of e hefty price! Cheap ones are so-so as aft a few times, they will not be able to produce exciting changes anymore! Somebody tell me! What am i gonna do? If its my big head or ugly face prob, there's nothing I can do for nw. So guess, bald is the answer rite? :

I'm just praying hard that my hair will grew thicker by next wk! haa..will try some ways to make it grow faster! I won want to look sooooo ugly nxt wk. May this be my 1st wish to be granted!

2006-10-07T06:48:00.000+08:00

Sian and Lost are the best words to describe my feelins right now! I totally dunno how should i approach LM.. its not possible to memorise it. we r supposed to understand the concepts..but how to? i cant even remember those leadership concepts. I feel like sleepin e moment i see the stupid boring black and white book tt r full of countless words. Yawnz.. Cooping myself at home to mug for this test is really boring me to tears and all i wan to do is to sleep and surf the net. Watching those irritating china tv serials at noon is so much better than studyin LM.

Anyway..ah gong is alrite. e hospi just called..His operation is a success. When my sis and I visited him yest, he look so handsome and healthy as compared to the others. Hai for e others but cheers for my gong gong. Though I complain abt him from time to time, its realli weird not having him home these few days. hope tt he will quickly recover and come back HOME! :)

i'm goin back to my bks now. my tv is off, lappy will be off soon. No disturbances are allowed till 5pm (other den food and toilet breaks :P) i gotta finish at least 3 more chaps todae so tt i can go to shihui's party in peace tml!

*Happy mooncake festival to everyone* so wanna play tt sparkles thingy!!

2006-10-05T16:23:00.000+08:00

*Just gotta put dis in as adino lOok soO cute in here... though i just look like an alien :P*

Some random and 'cuter' pics from fone.. will post up others soon
(All thanx 2 ah fu tt i managed 2 get all those pics out of my fone..muackx LeS!)

hope tt everythin will goes well for ah gong.. (:

2006-10-05T14:58:00.000+08:00

This is what I owed YOU.. sorry tt i took so long :P Heee...dun waste $135 if u only have e 'okok' feeling abt tt dress...

Anyway..had prepared my prev entry since last mon but haven post yet cos i cant seems to upload e video i wanted to incl!
Can anyone, please just enlighten me??

* Thanx aH Kuek - for all e notes..muackS!! we'll start typin e notes aft e crucial nxt wk and send 2 u!! (:

2006-09-25T09:21:00.000+08:00

LOOK!! I got a new blogskin..dere goes my old greeny lookin skin. Thanks Ms Kwan! Though it's nt doreamon, at least it's my ex fav, winnie..haha! (PS: can help change back to black fonts?thanx (:)
My eyes and mouth are so tired after a long long battle! I had finally completed GOOnG! Gd show..luff soo much and cried even more at e endin esps just now. So ppl..rem to catch it when it aired on channel U! Though some parts r pretty slow, it's still Ok cos it will give u ppl chances to take toilet or snacks break. Hee! Had been reading and hearing goong's stuff online! So feel like reading e manga (if i can understand). The show was shot in a very classic and artistic way..beautiful surroundings..mmh..hw sld i put it? haa..it just give ppl a nice and sweet feeling. Though I din learn anythin frm e show (sumthin i'll always look forward in shows), I gotta say tt its ....gOOD! Haa. additonally, e featured songs r nice. e lyrics of e song is even more significant and well-related to e story and e characters. Hearing e song itself will aso bring tears to my eyes! Some might say tt it's sso dumb to hear songs in languages tt u cant even understand but I feel tt if u really listen wholeheartedly, you will be affected and be able 2 comprehend e underlying emotions of e song. Haa..come on, Music is universal!
Shouldnt be doin all these nw. i sld be completing EG, preparing for PM and LM test. But wat to do, I just dun have e discipline. SOOO Ms Poh....u can only just slack for one last dae k!~ My dear sis aso started watchin frm esp 5. Though she keep crticising tt e main lead, Shin is so ugly and stuff, I can see tt she kinda like e show too. Or else she wont be rushing me to get home earlier or slp late and wake up earli to finish e show so tt she can quickly go back to her examz preparations. Hereby, wishin her all e best for her exams.. Acha acha!
Think e crying is causing 'swolleness' to my eyes and i feel tt my body need sum sleep aft chioning e show for 3 daes..
pennin off nw..wan go watch goong's stuff and sleep le! (my infatuation with this show will end within 3 daes! crossing my fingers)

2006-09-20T14:31:00.000+08:00

GREAT! The following was what I tried 2 write 2 wks ago..haha.. Super no time and mood 2 continue..well but since I had written it..i'm gonna keep dem!

05-09-06

Gd communication is vital. I realise this over these past few days. I had been shooting my mouth off unknowingly and this had caused conflicts which i hate! but wat to do, its all my own fault! Hai.. my lateness had never really caused any problems for others except myself. I would miss out on details during lectures or miss front parts of movies and etc. However, I caused trouble for my fren when i was late tt dae..hai..i realli dun mean it and I really wanted to be on time but as usual, suay me always run into unexpected situations. What to do, I was punished hard by her. She just ignore me all e way and i hate silent treatment. I really rather she scream at me but knowing her, she just gave me cold stares!

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19-09-06

I had always lamented that I'm suay which is realli true la..looking at my daily happenings! But other than all these hitches, I must say that I'm pretty lucky le (Super contradicting). I have a good family wif loving parents, trying to give us watever they cld though they can be naggy and irritating at times and cute siblings that r always ard 4 me though they are irritating, childlish and unreasonable at times as well. Though I always emphasized that my family is poor and i'm broke all e time, we are still able to get on life comfortably. i have a great bunch of frenz tt r willing to listen to my nonsense, entertain me by listening and luffin at dem. They realli made my day! The things that they shared wif me provide new insights for me and i'm grateful for this bunch of nonsensical but yet 'knowledgeable' frenz.. Bunch sounds like some bananas sia! Haa...nxt time round, i must write down my feelings for each of this ppl..:P Additionally, I have on and off PT jobs that help me solve my broke days. So.. come on, I shouldnt be complaining much le! Comparing to others, with family probs, real financial probs, I'm just a pea man! I couldnt help my close frenz much with their family probs cos I cant! Totally cant, i can only be dere, liven up their mood or just plainly, sitting dere, listening and just contribute some of my eees and ahhhs or some suggestions tt she might had heard and tot of a zillion times. Hai, hw much more pathetic can I be! And I totally cant help much wif relationship probs cos i dun even hav much or any whatsoever experience to speak of. I'm onli best @ two things, condemning e other party and making jokes 2 'ease' e pain! So, I'm totally sorry tt I cant help much, ppl.. but i'll realli be dere when u need sumbody!

Did a lot of eating for e past few wks. Ate late-nite prata almost every fri wif Ms rene and other celebrations tt r nv short of food. We sld be counting our lucky stars tt we have great food 2 eat but i just feel sinful and of course, it's just a feel. My mouth just nv stops! Tt's why i was surprised tt geo whom i met at city hall todae, exclaimed tt i had slim down..mmhmm...i din noe hw 2 react at tt pt. Anyway, i'm pretty apologetic towards her fren for sayin tt she looks taller in pic (slapping my mouth!), she must had felt insulted by me, the stupid woman tt think she's all tt 'tall' and whom she met for e 1st time! What an impression sia!
Gonna shop at suntec tml..haahaa.. Ms Boo, I'm no longer scared of e hordes of police le OK! Heard lotsa discounts but guess i'm just gonna window shop! Pay haven arrived from both sides and I hoped tt SP will pay us for e evals or else christie is gonna KILL me! Another thing! Haha, suddenly, I got so many things 2 say.. Mr Wayne is really a charmer even wif his deep eyebags but tt shows that he works hard and is a gd juggler wif multiple jobs and he had such a 'toned' body for his age! Guess he realli golf! hehehe! Charismatic leadership!! and I'm a total sucker for ppl wif gd faceskin, be it women or men! I'll just stare at their skin, irregardless of anythin! I'll be wondering what's their secret regime. Envious... I'm being very bimbotic (whatever e spelling is)

Like to share sumthin with e maybe 7 or 8 exclusive ppl who is reading dis, do u noe tt e common birds wif yellow beak is called a 'ba ge'? haha!! Tt's somethin and also some other animals stuff tt I learnt from one of my 'knowledgable' fren, ms rene! Thanx babe.

And finally, i'll like to incl a closing quote frm my lecturer, Mr Jeffery, 'You are a perfect personification of stupidity', doesnt this sounds so much better den 'You are stupid'. I totally agreed. :)

2006-08-27T01:48:00.000+08:00

Official deClaratIon

I like to officially announce that I'm a super loser whose courage is as small as a pea! watched e stupid snakes on e plane yest and i was covering my face (wishing my hands r bigger) and shrieking thruout e whole show! Well..Ms Kwan think that I'm a coward and I graciously accept tt. Come on le, I was already lamenting that i hate to watch dis freaking show. But wat to do, we wasnt in time to watch devil wears prada so....tt's IT!

Well, back 2 e show, there are thousands different kinds of snakes, its like a snake farm in dere la! I cant imagine myself in an enclosed area wif those slimy creatures! Hereby, i like to salute zookeepers! B4 e show, I was saying that i wan to be a traffic police! mmh..think i sld drop tt idea, i'm nt brave or strong enuff 2 be one lo! I cant even face those stupid snakes la! Anyway, zookeeper was another dream job for me too..haha! However, some of e snakes look so fake but still, i'm freaked out by these creatures

I can still feel my hair standing even when i'm just narrating e story 2 my dear bro and yea..he was saying tt it sounds sooo interestin!

From now on, I'm goin 2 be careful of holes as snakes can be lurking anywhere and anytime! Maybe sum terrorists will get sum inspirations from dis show and set millions of snakes in suntec in sep!!! ARGH!! ppl, pls check properly ar!

My skin is in a terrible condition today. Well, its always like dis when i dun have enuff slp and slp like at 5am. Its like itchy and heaty wif lil rash spots and sian, my face will be aggravated with tonite's bbq! Hope tonite will be fun! :D

PS: dap, dun think too much oh, rem he is just a kid!

2006-08-22T16:32:00.000+08:00

Mmh...maybe i sld had named my blog, angel-5@blogspot.com or something like tt. I seems so disloyal as compared to ms yew..hee, to think tt I still dare to luff!

Anyway..glad tt e comp called me back to go back to work on thurs and fri and think she kinda accepts tt i can just go down on thurs and fri! Hurray..i'll continue to work hard!! :D

Hope tt I can manage my time well enough to juggle both studies and work. Knew a lot of ppl had managed to do it! But it seems ages since I manage both! But definitely, I'll persevere and work hard towards my aims in doing all these!

I got a new specs! Yippee..thanx to ying's advance, will repay her bck as soon as i get my pay!

Lastly, the following stuff are dedicated to my zinc! Finally saw her crush last wk!! I was so excited when i see him in far east..ppl who know me sld noe why! Well, I had e same feelings as zinc's frenz..he is not all tt gorgeous but defintely cute!! So jia you zinc! :P

Gotta get back to proj..looking 4ward to e end of this LM proj! haa..or sld i say, all projs?

2006-08-21T02:53:00.000+08:00

Non-words expressions

2006-08-18T22:05:00.000+08:00

Well..I spoke about 50 sentences today! Haha..feel much better todae, not tt suffocated! e ppl dere r all really pretty nice too! Well..just hope that they will really ask me to go back to work next wk! 'Crossing my fingers'
Ms Kwan's hse is really very messy..and had been for the years that I knew her! But..its just her style la! Or sld I say tt its attributed to her bro? Anyway..I finally know how to post pics! Thanks to Ms Kwan! So well..my posts wont be so full of words in e future!
Don't feel like going home tonite so i'm in Kwan's hse now, den going to meet chen xiao xiao to eat prata and yum cha! so 'uncle' sia! Praying hard tt I won meet him dere.. anyway, even if we really meet, he will be completely turned off by my specky face!! haha
Tml is e dae for me to realli start my proj! hai.. had been saying this for a few days but was just too tired! So..no matter wat, I must do all e work tml b4 goin out! :D go gO Go!!

These are such super short and stupid thoughts but just feel like writing down sum stuff using her Mac..hee!

2006-08-17T20:07:00.000+08:00

Today is the one and only day that I think I spoke less than 20 sentences. OMG! i really cannot believe it..i feel so suffocated sia! Other than that, work today was quite smooth-sailing though I think i'm a bit slow but after some consolations from dearie kuek, I felt much better! Tml will be a better day and I will try to speak 30 sentences. hee!

Well..i dreamt of milopeng tt nite!Here goes..my sis and I lost our way back to office aft lunch (my 1st day of work) den they were riding those stunt bikes and they actually send us back le! of cos, my sis was riding wif her fav nic la..haha! (Zinc: Look, I treat u so well even when i'm in my dreamland..haa!)

Recently, i had some few weird encounters. Jurong really got a lot of weird ppl. Two nonsensical aunties and 2 weird uncles. eee...

No 1 weird auntie in the LIBRARY - I seen her for three days in a row! (Refer to my prev entry!) Firstly, allow me to describe her! she seems to be in her 40s..has a weird attitude and body language and she's super bored! Her bored signs are super obvious. she asked ying 2 step aside from the machines (when dere's nobody ard except us), not to put our things near e other machine, standing beside me when i'm copying to make sure tt I won spoil her machines when she is spoiling it by keep 'un-standby' the machines! Ying was super pissed. We sld had say sumthin rude! :P

No2 weird auntie in JEC - Ying wanted to change $1 coins to turn e toys and she (e neoprint shop auntie) dun wan exchange, lamenting that its not her machines. So I decided to try and say tt I wan take neoprints so she changed for me. and since that the shop has no business, she keep making sure that I really will take e neoprints! But I quickly sneaked out and went 2 another shop 2 wait for ying to de done wif her 'turning'..Guess wat? e super free auntie went 2 e food court and all places to look for me and when she saw me. She chided me for lying to her and blah blah blah...haha..and evil me just deny! oops...but comeon, its juts a few coins..I din steal it le!

No3 uncle asked me for money when I was on e way home (alone and dark..scary!)

No4 uncle just keep stopping each time we stopped and walk at the same pace wif us! Argh!

My pa was telling me tt he might be goin 2 thailand wif my mum next month..sayin tt its cheap and stuff..but lata den I realise tt nxt mth is my mum's bdae! haa...papa..I can see thru ya motives so easily! But I really feel that my pa is so sweet la..even if he cant afford much, he will always do sumthin sweet for my mum during her bdae and vdae! But e bad thing is he doesnt wan to bring me!! but wat to do, it's his lil own celebration wif my mum!! Guess even though my dad has a big belly and has a short/bad temper, he's still my ideal type of e ONE!

2006-08-15T16:25:00.000+08:00

Win already lo! U are always the most reasonable person around! I cant talk to kuek in front of you becos I will be disturbing. I have to surpress my laughter just becos you hav to sleep. Please count the times that you talk and laugh aloud in the middle of the nite, either on the fone or at the tv! I am unreasonable? please speak for yourself 1st b4 u comment on others!

Went to the library to photocopy sum leadership notes for LM. Guess wat, i accidentally tore e side of a few pgs of this bk that is soooo new while photocopyin! I feel sooo bad for the bk. The photocopyin auntie bought me tapes to tape it back and keep lamenting that it's ok and saying that i'm very nice to paste them back. Come on, the book is so new! Who can bear to leave a new book without its several edges.

Anyway..just realised that I had photocpied the wrong chapter of the bk! Argh, how dumb can I be?? Well..tt means i'll have to make a trip to e library tml aft meeting shihui and aft collecting e illegal photocopies of EG!

2006-08-15T11:26:00.000+08:00

Irresponsible man

This type of man is the worst kind of all human beings. They are horrible, incorrigible and just deserved to die and disappear from the face of the earth. Ladies, we will never know how the person is really like till we get together with them and breathe the same air together. It will be blind at first but the ugly truth will reveal sooner or later. I'm downright sad for my fren now. Not pissed or watever, just a mixture of sadness and disappointment! Yesterday, I suddenly had the urge to contact my fren, A to see how was she doing. I remembered that a few wks ago that she was having some problems wif her bf. Thus, I just want to make sure she's alrite. Hai..but the reply wasnt good at all! The irresponsible man (or should I say boy) had been cheating behind her back all the while. To think that A had been sacrificing all along, borne him a child and waiting patiently for the day that he will grad and marry her! What kind of shit is this? He had completely ruin A's whole life. Some people might think that I'm being ridiculous for being upset but I just simply cant stand that this can happen and worse, to my good friend. Some might think that A is naive and should have an abortion. But A is not such a cruel person to let go of her flesh and blood. I know that she is a brave person and might be able to live on by herself but dis is just not deserving for her at all. I hate this guy who had been faking all the while, deceiving my fren, her family and friends. To think that I was hoping to go to their wedding since they had been together since 6 years ago. Guess I am also not somebody who is good at accessing others. There's nothing I can do to help A, nothing at all and I feel so useless. I can only stand by her side to give her moral support. She who is so headstrong, wont accept my financial help [though I dun have much too..:(]! I really couldnt imagine her days ahead where she need to fight to survive with her child. I can only say that I really admire her for being this strong. I will never be as capable, strong and optimistic as her. I just wish that someone who is true to her will appear to take care of her and accept her child. As for the useless, irresponsible idiot, I hope that he will get his retributions. I definitely believe in karma.

Now I just hope that all my other frenz will not meet this breed of man and find their own happiness or else please just live on alone for their rest of their lives. It's better than suffering under the hands of these men. Better open our eyes wide and stand up for ourselves!

Anyway, to Ms Huang, please pardon me for my tactlessness. I really dont mean what i said in the library. Hai..I better keep my mouth shut or go thru my words in my mind before shooting my mouth off. Please forgive me, I am really sorry, woman!

2006-08-12T14:40:00.000+08:00

New job, new fears

I'm soo happy that I have a job! Hurray!!! Thanks to my bestie kuek, muackz! This means that i will have extra income and able to save enough to go visit kuek or HC..haha! Mum wont feel so tight with $$ as well. Along with that, fears also surfaced. Fears that I'll flop at the job as I worry that my performance won be on par as kuek, or even at least to the I/C's expectations! Scary scary... That leads to a 'morninmare' just right b4 I woke up 2 watch e superband repeat tele! i dreamt that I reported on time (woo..hengz!) but i wasnt given anything to do so I just went home becos I feel that I am useless! The next minute, somebody from e office called me to go back to work! haha.. it's so dumb! I will cross my fingers and wish for the best! I will be extra super hardworking too!! I promise! so..please, please, I hope i can hold on to the job! Please, its my only wish for now!

Anyway, yest's fireworks was soo spectacular, much much better than tues's! There will always be some uncle or di di who will be super exaggerated about the whole display, super noisy with their loud commentary about their feelings about the fireworks and with all the 'appropriate' woos, haas and SHOUTS! At first, it was very funny but it became very irritating. Ai yo..can these people just relax and watch the display although their woos and haas made the whole thing much interesting but come on, shi ke er zhi!

Went to turn e 'vending machines' and BBC spent more than $20 on 4 different pooh's family characters. Well..think she's starting this new hobby! I think i'll go buy the mini vending machines set too..hee!!

After lots of play and no work dis whole wk, I better get back to work now or my head will surely be chopped off. Furthermore, with a new job, I better buck up and work harder! Jia youz, Gambadae, Acha acha!!!!

2006-08-11T12:54:00.000+08:00

A piece of fish tt is not meant for me?

haa..dis post is for Ms Kwan. HappY Bdae to you!! That piece of fish is meant for you le! Happy? but make me paiseh lo! Hee..but it's fine, as long as you are happy! Well, I guess I should be more careful in front of people that I'm not too close to! You never know what they mean..

Anyway, I kinda like the fireworks atnosphere on Tues though its kinda slow. My fav part of the display is of the few golden starry 'flags' hanging in the sky! Woo.. magnificent! Did something embarrassing to my HC's VIP. Come on, I really dont mean it and I know how you felt after my juice incident. Well..here's a big SORRY to you! haha..I dun wanna lose a fren becos of it! Well..Looking forward to tonite's fireworks and e chill out session wif tut kiddos. Hope it wont be too expensive but it's definitely worth a try :)

Recently, I found out a new disquality of myself. I'm super terrible at arcade gaming. Think arcades always earn $$ from gaming idolts like me! Anyway, dun care, I still want to continue wasting $$..Haha!

National Day always holds a special place in my heart. My eyes will tear during the end when everybody sing all those patriotic songs, seeing LKY eyes that are full of history and what he had done to our home. Guess i'm just always full of these kind of idiotic emotions. I'm lucky that i was involved in NDP before. I had fun, knew great ppl, and dis day will always hold special memories for this group of frenz. Was so happy to receive Ros's sms and yes, I really missed those days! Think that it's really a waste and wrong decision for them to tear down the national stadium. There are just too many memories for lotsa over there!

Anyway, i'll like to wish singapore, a belated happy bdae and hope that all Singaporeans will become happier, be safe and that our country will continue to prosper! *winks*

Dis post seems kinda disorganised sia but dun care la. Just penning down my various major thoughts of the past few days.. haha!

Motto Learnt : By not taking every single thingy to heart, it will make myself less miserable and self-conscious

2006-08-08T13:10:00.000+08:00

I love to slack! You know like really just slack by lying down on my bed, staring up at the ceiling, reading books and mags, or irritating my family members. ooH…it’s a life I love! Well..cos it means I can spend some time with them. After watching click, this seems evidently more important. Just like what ah fu had said, I really teared.
Anyway, on sat, had a mad rush from going 2 bugis (mos wif caiyilin) 2 my pri sch mate’s bdae den rushin to BBC’s hse 2 have the online bdae celebration (opening all e 21 prezzies, singing bdae songs, crapping, luffing at silly things and much more) with ah kuek. Was really happy that kuek was touched. The top five things that she liked (in no particular order):
1) her bdae carebear (a new addition 2 her collection)
2) e ma de zhong (e naked bod tt she love e bez!)
3) Our photos (though she sae it’ll be better with our greetings but, woman, tt’s ur homework!!)
4) E biscuits (haa…especially jo’s biscults (e one tt she claims tt she always bring during our tp days 4 us to eat when nobody rems eating dem) (Jo, better rem to buy for us 4 our nxt meeting!)
5) SEEING ALL OF US GATHERING AT BBC’S HSE JUST TO CELEBRATE WITH HER!!

Well, guess its worth all e rush. And to e sistas angels, we had made it once again! Good job babes!! Well, better do a good job for the nxt and last angel too ah *winks* haha!
It’s gonna be a free wk dis wk man! haa..a 7 days national day celebration!! Yeah, but no slacking! Gonna watch e fireworks tonite, national day lunch wif cousins, bdae celebrations wif ms Kwan, meet up wif shimin (yea!), meet wif tut kiddos 2 go 2 e cine’s games café as shihui suggested (hope all can make it or else its only me tt is gonna get e 1st ride frm her lo.. So you two better come ar!! haha)
And in between all these, I better get some quality work done for LM or else I’m really gonna get into deep shit. Woo..its gonna be due in around 2 wks time! But to my ah huh peeps, we surely can make it once again one though we seems to be still lost here and dere. But well, it’s not the first time we are like dis rite, so don’t fret!

2006-08-08T13:06:00.000+08:00

e 1001 suay esp on 7/8/06

I'm so damn pissed yesterday!!! It was like another suay day of my life but it was like real suay just at the start of the day!! Initially, I was so happy that I can finally eat e ai xin mac breakie with BBC b4 class starts! (Thanks babe!) Then was commenting on how great the toast, egg was as compared to other branches. Then here comes, the evil creature, the new 'lock out' orange juice cup! I cant poke my straw thru the only available hole so I tried opening the cap which is well..so tight and locked just as it's name implies! So, as usual, the violent and kan cheong me just turned e cap with lotsa strength which causes the juice to spill. Luckily it's only on the table! Seeing that it had been such a tiring process just to drink the juice, I decided not to cap it back! That’s e worst decision I ever made! Just as I was preparing to go to class, folding my flimsy jacket and stuff, I turn and hit the cup and whoomp, all e juices just fall onto me!!!!!! My whole shirt and half of my jeans is drenched with my beloved drink! I just sat that monotonously till BBC come back with e stolen serviettes from the WC that she planned to use as her coaster 4 her coffee! Well, it became the towel to wipe the table!! After that I just went to clean up, splashing lots of water on my shirt, pulling up my shirt to dry it under the hot dryer, irregardless of the ppl inside WC! (totally without any image, argh!) Wetting my whole jeans so that the water stain in e middle wont seems so awkward!! Arghh!! Here goes my whole day!!! Well, I think I better stick to my non-breakie routine. Regardless if it will make my brain function better or make me slimmer! I wasn't even concentrating on my BB class at all. All I can think of is the orange smell on me! The one and only limited edition perfume in da world!
Anyway, for moi dis thousand and one suay esp, I will like to thank a few people! Firstly, to BBC, thanks for buying the breakie and be a cleaner with me during the whole breakfast session! Secondly, Ms kwan for telling me that at least I din spill BBC's coffee onto my shirt and only luff when u met me aft that instead of on the fone! Thirdly, Ah fu for bringing me ya nice cyan shirt (haa, choosing one that is not too tight for me)! Fourthly, my mum and sis who just couldn't stop laughing at me! Lastly, to Mac, thanks a lot for making my day soooo eventful!

PS to Mac: Please do change your packaging as I think that there are a lot of other stupid consumers like me out there. Furthermore, it’s early in the morning, we the consumers won't want to ponder so much over a stupid juice cup, we just want to have a nice breakie to start off our day nicely!! Or else, just change to a thicker straw that can be easily poked through tt crossed hole!

I really don't wish that this will happen to another being out there as it's really a bad way to start a nice Monday! :P

2006-08-05T16:09:00.000+08:00

August 5. 14:26 Depression is finally hitting me!

After reading Ms lim's blog, I suddenly got this enthusiasm to start penning down my thoughts. Well, it may also be cos it's a special day for my bestie kuek. Happy 21st B'dae! Sometimes I feel that I do not take e initiative 2 know people well enough. Is it because I can't be bothered? Or it's just that I feel that there are enough people around me that I love. Isn't this kinda an introvert thinking..haa..den moi LM test must be all wrong and it's a Huge wrong cos I almost obtained a perfect score for being an extrovert! Well, that doesn't matter as I feel that every person has an inner personality that is not reveal to others, even their closest pals.
Had been kinda weird since kuek left. Guess I'm just too used to her being around. Maybe its time for me to open up to others. Anyway..i'm glad that the digital voices that I heard had not reappeared! Thank god! I really dun wan to admit myself into IMH b4 I drive others crazy to join me dere..haha. Please dun come back again!
I hate it when people are indecisive though I cant say that I'm a super decisive person. But come on, there are things that can be easily settled without wasting unnecessary energy and time. But..well, as Ms lim and lotsa of others commented, I'm just someone who is easily kan cheong.
I will call instead if smsing people for things that are important. Waiting for a sms reply is ridiculous to me! Well..guess I'm not a very tech savvy person. However, sorry 2 those that I always seem to miss ya calls. Guess u all were looking for me urgently cos of sum IMPT things!
Guess I inherited all these frm my dad & granddad. Take for example, now! They are now well prepared, waiting patiently for my biao ge 2 come pick them up to go for his gal's mth old party! They will say that they are being punctual but I feel that it's the kan cheong spirit! Upon reading this, lots might be shocked! Haa..well, I'm sorry but I'm not dis type of 'kan cheong'. I'm always late, I must say. But I had been trying hard not to recently. Well..But you know la, things always seem to crop up. What can I say? I have a cock up life with weird happenings all the time. It might seems like excuses to some people but seriously, it's really true that I always had weird encounters. Well, to my uni mates, they will feel that I'm improving from being in class after ten to appearing a few seconds before ten! Hurray! Well, but the next day, I will revert to the after ten ritual! But I promise I will really try hard!
On Friday, I saw my 'best fren' after just commenting that he had not been eyeing on us recently and its signs of relief as I really dun wan to see his stupid face! Well..knowing me, I blurted out, oh shit once I see him. Guess what, he said in Hokkien 'seen a ghost'. dinno, ah fu & me was just shocked and start lamenting that yeayea, we r the 'ghost'. But what the hell, the more I think of it, I was just pissed that he said that! Its either he was commenting on our ultra shocked faces or he's really saying 'we r the ghost' But whatever is it, WAR IS ON! So to my sistas in sch, we better develop a plan to counter attack him! (haa..This is sooo childlish!)

Truthfully, I feel better in days after writing all this heartfelt garbage! I guess I will be writing often. Well..This might be another side of me that is slowly evolving. Zinc, don't be so shocked la! I'm fine, I just need somewhere to vent my thoughts. Maybe you sld start showing me ya thoughts instead of guarding them with the pathetic black ribbon & red book so dat we can understand each other better!