so glad. very relieved.

Though it's not the very best, i knew that i had tried my best.
I had been thinking how to do it better next year. If i'm given this awards dinner next year again, i'm sure gonna make it better, and different from all the past years.

Some major changes might happen in the company. it will affect my team greatly. I hope that it will not become a reality and we will still be together. I'm very grateful for the friendship and bond with my few teammates now. Without each other's support, we will not be able to get by all those terrible months.

The past two weeks before this awards had set me thinking if i'm cut out for this field.
Let me have a break and think this thru.

I need my friends now to get thru all these. i really appreciate my friends' existence.

Cheers :)