staying at home these two days deepen my loneliness. nobody nagging me, walking around, worrying about the TV volume and etc.

had still been imagining that they will walk out from their room, him with his cane, her being carried by auntie. these images just popped up whenever i turned.

i miss you two. still.

We as humans are actually quite apt at adapting to changes. it's all about a new/improved environment where we hypnotise ourselves that these changes are for a better reason or we just know that things can never go back to before.

Now should be the time for me to grow up, do this thing tt i shld have taken a more active step long ago. Scary how loneliness can make you do things that iyou will never imagine.