Sunshine after e rain. Eveything was just a mistake! haa..I think too much. I must be less sensitive and temperless in e future. Anyway..i really wanna post all my bdae celebrations pics and thoughts but i'm so lazy to slowly save ind pics one by one! Well..by the time i save those pics, think i can post e xmas celebration photos. i'll upload nxt wk aft dis hectic xmas week.

I'll like 2 give the biggest THANK YOU to everyone who had remembered my birthday. It really means a lot to me =)

Especially to the special ones who had celebrated in PERSON with me on 14 Dec..

E KTV session

AdIno (Thanx for ya xmas card too! it's so pretty!)

Ah fu (Thanx for e special handmade card (love it!) and my 1st CAKE earring)

Ah Say (Thanx for the present u shared wif ah fu and dino)

* KTV was great fun wif u guys! mUst go together often but sad tt ah say isnt too into ktv..

E not-so-great dinner @ Essential Brews wif ATC gang

Shimin aka Chen Xiao Xiao

Daphne Kwan

Joyceee

Why did i say that it was not so great? Cos this 3 babes was just dying to get me home wif all sort of reasons. (Borrowing of vcds, wanting to get Decolgen, my fav pills) Was thinking tt it was weird that they want to get home early as they are not tt kind of ppl who will but didnt think much as they all seems to be tried wif work and sch. But... THANKS for acting and coordinating so well with the surprise gang in my hse.

Surprise Gang at BLK 1_ _, Jurong East @ 11pm

Papa

Mamee

Lao Ying

Fu Ren Jie

Ah Kuek

Ying

ah Ching

This gang waited for me to get home and i really thank them for their patience as i was really trying to stall time wif the ATC peeps so as not to get home earli.

I was truly veri surprised and super happy to be able to blow out e candles and made my wishes for my 'adulthood' minutes bef 12.

Thanks a lot to e 4 of you. I 'heart' YOU alll...........:)

I should be happily typing my happy thoughts for my 21st bdae. But instead, i had never felt worse than ever. I dunno how to start but it's all caused by my still unchanged childlish, unreasonable, untactful temper, character even after hitting the big 21. I should have just controlled my temper, dun blurt out e nonsense and everything will end with a perfect ending. My birthday would had been perfect, i would be happy and they will be as well. However, becos of my short temper, all these had become a big IMPOSSIBILITY! Was reflecting on my way home, should i just call kuek to apologise? But does that turn things over or make things worse? And i reasoned that there's no point in doing that as i had already spoiled everything. Nothing, NOTHING can remove the hurt i instilled in kuek, HC and ying, after the lots and lots of effort they put into for my bdae and also, their presence throughout my life all these years.

Truly disappointed..from HC..yes i noe. This pricked deep into my heart. But i guess, its not as deep for them, especially ah kuek.

Come to think of it, I seems to be always hurting ah kuek. On e few occasions that i had flared, it seems to be always targeted towards her. I know it's wrong but being so close to her, i always have no reserves and qualms abt speaking out real crudely with her. Why must i always hurt the one closest to me?

I do not want to give any excuses for myself. I know I sld had understand the facts first but i was just too hasty. However, i really dunno what was going on. Before e movie, they had been pushing my name ard for the xmas present exchange. I know its a joke as i'm always picky. Thus, the person tt need 2 buy my present will have a major headache. I dunno who is it but i presume it was kuek who need to buy for me. And conincidentally, I was to buy for her. Once i picked her name, I was ecstatic that i can buy for her aft everything she and her family had done for me! and especially for it was for HER! & was contemplating what to buy for her as she gt almost everything and the little time left to buy. However, even knowin that it was just our usual joke (not wanting to be e one to buy my present), i still feel kinda sad as i was so eager to get e xmas gift for her and for the others as well. But i din say anythin and just luff it off. I should have just done the same thing when they mentioned again aft e movie. Too bad, the spoiler me just couldnt keep my damn mouth close and the damage was done with me saying, ' i know u dun wan to buy for me and ....' i forgot what else i say but i know i had been unreasonable.

I'm laughing at myself now. They sure won have any probs buying anything for me as they already bought 21 for me. What more can I ask for friends like them, organising surprises, buying e 21 presents, going to the zoo? They had truly wasted their time, effort and energy on someone as lousy as me.

To be honest, i am really picky bout stuff. i got great specifications bout things i like. It's not the price or brand. I dun go for that. It's just that i just need to have a good feeling bout that something. The thing is, nobody know, that even if the thing doesnt suit me, i never ever throw them away, i treasure them as it represents each and every fren and occasion. Even if i dun use it, it doesnt mean that i hate it, or maybe yes, i dun like it but the thought and person behind it make all the difference. I just need to improve on my initial response. My initial response maybe disappointing but i'll be truly thankful for having the present but it will had been too late as the giver would had been hurt by me.

Anyway, going back, i being so straightforward and them who understand me so well, will know from my obvious expression if i like or dislike somethin. So ..after all the years of presents exchanging, they had understand my pickiness and thus, the JOKE. I don't mind being the butt of jokes as it's really my own fault for being so picky and truthful in my expressions. But i just cant help showing my real emotions but i definitely had been trying to master the art of showing one perfect expression. Nevertheless, they still can see thru me at times as i cant help showing my true emotions in front of these best buddies.

Whether or not anybody believes, I had felt real bad immediately after shooting off.

I had remorsed and i apologise for what i had said. I hope tt i can have the chance to make it up but think the chances are nearing zero as they might not even want to see my stupid face or hear my dumb voice again. Writing this is not in the aim of hoping for your forgiveness but it's to serve as a constant reminder.

Happy days are gone after the destruction.

Hope that everyone will have a great xmas and have one less lousy friend like me.

Refreshing? Nodding hard? Haha..i am! Wanted something different from my usual green one and to my own surprise, i choose this skin ! Might be a bit too cute but just bear wif it! i'll change it once i'm in e mood 2 change to my long awaited doraemon's! :D

Anyway, think i forgot to mention something real 'shakening', Ms Kuek Ah Rong is back! (kinda outdated la, she had been back close to 3 wks!) She gave all of us a great surprise and she made me lie so as to get off work and to acc her on her 1st day back! But wat to do, she's my 'best friend' and anyway, i'm way too excited to concentrate on e work if I really did went back to work. Interested parties, please view www.xanga.com/maameemoo to read bout her surprise tactics!

Ah kuek, WELCOME BACK once again! Hahahaha.. This time round, we will do whatever u wan before u go back next yr once again :( (:

How I wish tt everybody can be bald! We dun need to worry bout haircuts and which hairstylists to trust! I hate this procedure which i need to go thru almost every 3 mths as I really cant stand feeling my hair near my neck. (So irritating and itchy!) Tot I had found a good hairstylist aft e prev dye and cut a few mths back (which i was rather satisfied with) But alas.. it wasnt the case yest. My hair is disastrous nw! I look like a kid with a weird hairdo that is too flat... ahhh..KILL ME PLs! Maybe I shouldnt had contributed too much comments bout his haircutting techniques and asking him to give me a new hairstyle. Well..an advice tt I must write down to remind myself for my next haircut! [Never, NEVER ask for a new hairstyle when ya face aint tt pretty!!] I always try to remind myself this as it highly applies to me! But I just dun learn my lessons. I just want changes even though it always turn out BAD!

However, it might also be my low confidence and not of the hairstylist. Whatever!..in 3 mths time, i'm going to make my rounds to ask for recommendations again [or I'll go back to e same guy again? :( ] To be honest, I had really tried quite a num of hairstylists, ranging from real exp ones to cheap ones. The exp ones may make me feel tt my hair looks kinda nice cos of e price but i'll always experience post cut dissonance cos of e hefty price! Cheap ones are so-so as aft a few times, they will not be able to produce exciting changes anymore! Somebody tell me! What am i gonna do? If its my big head or ugly face prob, there's nothing I can do for nw. So guess, bald is the answer rite? :

I'm just praying hard that my hair will grew thicker by next wk! haa..will try some ways to make it grow faster! I won want to look sooooo ugly nxt wk. May this be my 1st wish to be granted!

Sian and Lost are the best words to describe my feelins right now! I totally dunno how should i approach LM.. its not possible to memorise it. we r supposed to understand the concepts..but how to? i cant even remember those leadership concepts. I feel like sleepin e moment i see the stupid boring black and white book tt r full of countless words. Yawnz.. Cooping myself at home to mug for this test is really boring me to tears and all i wan to do is to sleep and surf the net. Watching those irritating china tv serials at noon is so much better than studyin LM.

Anyway..ah gong is alrite. e hospi just called..His operation is a success. When my sis and I visited him yest, he look so handsome and healthy as compared to the others. Hai for e others but cheers for my gong gong. Though I complain abt him from time to time, its realli weird not having him home these few days. hope tt he will quickly recover and come back HOME! :)

i'm goin back to my bks now. my tv is off, lappy will be off soon. No disturbances are allowed till 5pm (other den food and toilet breaks :P) i gotta finish at least 3 more chaps todae so tt i can go to shihui's party in peace tml!

*Happy mooncake festival to everyone* so wanna play tt sparkles thingy!!

*Just gotta put dis in as adino lOok soO cute in here... though i just look like an alien :P*

Some random and 'cuter' pics from fone.. will post up others soon
(All thanx 2 ah fu tt i managed 2 get all those pics out of my fone..muackx LeS!)

hope tt everythin will goes well for ah gong.. (:

This is what I owed YOU.. sorry tt i took so long :P Heee...dun waste $135 if u only have e 'okok' feeling abt tt dress...





















Anyway..had prepared my prev entry since last mon but haven post yet cos i cant seems to upload e video i wanted to incl!
Can anyone, please just enlighten me??

* Thanx aH Kuek - for all e notes..muackS!! we'll start typin e notes aft e crucial nxt wk and send 2 u!! (:

LOOK!! I got a new blogskin..dere goes my old greeny lookin skin. Thanks Ms Kwan! Though it's nt doreamon, at least it's my ex fav, winnie..haha! (PS: can help change back to black fonts?thanx (:)
My eyes and mouth are so tired after a long long battle! I had finally completed GOOnG! Gd show..luff soo much and cried even more at e endin esps just now. So ppl..rem to catch it when it aired on channel U! Though some parts r pretty slow, it's still Ok cos it will give u ppl chances to take toilet or snacks break. Hee! Had been reading and hearing goong's stuff online! So feel like reading e manga (if i can understand). The show was shot in a very classic and artistic way..beautiful surroundings..mmh..hw sld i put it? haa..it just give ppl a nice and sweet feeling. Though I din learn anythin frm e show (sumthin i'll always look forward in shows), I gotta say tt its ....gOOD! Haa. additonally, e featured songs r nice. e lyrics of e song is even more significant and well-related to e story and e characters. Hearing e song itself will aso bring tears to my eyes! Some might say tt it's sso dumb to hear songs in languages tt u cant even understand but I feel tt if u really listen wholeheartedly, you will be affected and be able 2 comprehend e underlying emotions of e song. Haa..come on, Music is universal!
Shouldnt be doin all these nw. i sld be completing EG, preparing for PM and LM test. But wat to do, I just dun have e discipline. SOOO Ms Poh....u can only just slack for one last dae k!~ My dear sis aso started watchin frm esp 5. Though she keep crticising tt e main lead, Shin is so ugly and stuff, I can see tt she kinda like e show too. Or else she wont be rushing me to get home earlier or slp late and wake up earli to finish e show so tt she can quickly go back to her examz preparations. Hereby, wishin her all e best for her exams.. Acha acha!
Think e crying is causing 'swolleness' to my eyes and i feel tt my body need sum sleep aft chioning e show for 3 daes..
pennin off nw..wan go watch goong's stuff and sleep le! (my infatuation with this show will end within 3 daes! crossing my fingers)

GREAT! The following was what I tried 2 write 2 wks ago..haha.. Super no time and mood 2 continue..well but since I had written it..i'm gonna keep dem!

05-09-06

Gd communication is vital. I realise this over these past few days. I had been shooting my mouth off unknowingly and this had caused conflicts which i hate! but wat to do, its all my own fault! Hai.. my lateness had never really caused any problems for others except myself. I would miss out on details during lectures or miss front parts of movies and etc. However, I caused trouble for my fren when i was late tt dae..hai..i realli dun mean it and I really wanted to be on time but as usual, suay me always run into unexpected situations. What to do, I was punished hard by her. She just ignore me all e way and i hate silent treatment. I really rather she scream at me but knowing her, she just gave me cold stares!

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19-09-06

I had always lamented that I'm suay which is realli true la..looking at my daily happenings! But other than all these hitches, I must say that I'm pretty lucky le (Super contradicting). I have a good family wif loving parents, trying to give us watever they cld though they can be naggy and irritating at times and cute siblings that r always ard 4 me though they are irritating, childlish and unreasonable at times as well. Though I always emphasized that my family is poor and i'm broke all e time, we are still able to get on life comfortably. i have a great bunch of frenz tt r willing to listen to my nonsense, entertain me by listening and luffin at dem. They realli made my day! The things that they shared wif me provide new insights for me and i'm grateful for this bunch of nonsensical but yet 'knowledgeable' frenz.. Bunch sounds like some bananas sia! Haa...nxt time round, i must write down my feelings for each of this ppl..:P Additionally, I have on and off PT jobs that help me solve my broke days. So.. come on, I shouldnt be complaining much le! Comparing to others, with family probs, real financial probs, I'm just a pea man! I couldnt help my close frenz much with their family probs cos I cant! Totally cant, i can only be dere, liven up their mood or just plainly, sitting dere, listening and just contribute some of my eees and ahhhs or some suggestions tt she might had heard and tot of a zillion times. Hai, hw much more pathetic can I be! And I totally cant help much wif relationship probs cos i dun even hav much or any whatsoever experience to speak of. I'm onli best @ two things, condemning e other party and making jokes 2 'ease' e pain! So, I'm totally sorry tt I cant help much, ppl.. but i'll realli be dere when u need sumbody!

Did a lot of eating for e past few wks. Ate late-nite prata almost every fri wif Ms rene and other celebrations tt r nv short of food. We sld be counting our lucky stars tt we have great food 2 eat but i just feel sinful and of course, it's just a feel. My mouth just nv stops! Tt's why i was surprised tt geo whom i met at city hall todae, exclaimed tt i had slim down..mmhmm...i din noe hw 2 react at tt pt. Anyway, i'm pretty apologetic towards her fren for sayin tt she looks taller in pic (slapping my mouth!), she must had felt insulted by me, the stupid woman tt think she's all tt 'tall' and whom she met for e 1st time! What an impression sia!
Gonna shop at suntec tml..haahaa.. Ms Boo, I'm no longer scared of e hordes of police le OK! Heard lotsa discounts but guess i'm just gonna window shop! Pay haven arrived from both sides and I hoped tt SP will pay us for e evals or else christie is gonna KILL me! Another thing! Haha, suddenly, I got so many things 2 say.. Mr Wayne is really a charmer even wif his deep eyebags but tt shows that he works hard and is a gd juggler wif multiple jobs and he had such a 'toned' body for his age! Guess he realli golf! hehehe! Charismatic leadership!! and I'm a total sucker for ppl wif gd faceskin, be it women or men! I'll just stare at their skin, irregardless of anythin! I'll be wondering what's their secret regime. Envious... I'm being very bimbotic (whatever e spelling is)

Like to share sumthin with e maybe 7 or 8 exclusive ppl who is reading dis, do u noe tt e common birds wif yellow beak is called a 'ba ge'? haha!! Tt's somethin and also some other animals stuff tt I learnt from one of my 'knowledgable' fren, ms rene! Thanx babe.

And finally, i'll like to incl a closing quote frm my lecturer, Mr Jeffery, 'You are a perfect personification of stupidity', doesnt this sounds so much better den 'You are stupid'. I totally agreed. :)

Official deClaratIon

I like to officially announce that I'm a super loser whose courage is as small as a pea! watched e stupid snakes on e plane yest and i was covering my face (wishing my hands r bigger) and shrieking thruout e whole show! Well..Ms Kwan think that I'm a coward and I graciously accept tt. Come on le, I was already lamenting that i hate to watch dis freaking show. But wat to do, we wasnt in time to watch devil wears prada so....tt's IT!

Well, back 2 e show, there are thousands different kinds of snakes, its like a snake farm in dere la! I cant imagine myself in an enclosed area wif those slimy creatures! Hereby, i like to salute zookeepers! B4 e show, I was saying that i wan to be a traffic police! mmh..think i sld drop tt idea, i'm nt brave or strong enuff 2 be one lo! I cant even face those stupid snakes la! Anyway, zookeeper was another dream job for me too..haha! However, some of e snakes look so fake but still, i'm freaked out by these creatures

I can still feel my hair standing even when i'm just narrating e story 2 my dear bro and yea..he was saying tt it sounds sooo interestin!

From now on, I'm goin 2 be careful of holes as snakes can be lurking anywhere and anytime! Maybe sum terrorists will get sum inspirations from dis show and set millions of snakes in suntec in sep!!! ARGH!! ppl, pls check properly ar!

My skin is in a terrible condition today. Well, its always like dis when i dun have enuff slp and slp like at 5am. Its like itchy and heaty wif lil rash spots and sian, my face will be aggravated with tonite's bbq! Hope tonite will be fun! :D

PS: dap, dun think too much oh, rem he is just a kid!

Mmh...maybe i sld had named my blog, angel-5@blogspot.com or something like tt. I seems so disloyal as compared to ms yew..hee, to think tt I still dare to luff!

Anyway..glad tt e comp called me back to go back to work on thurs and fri and think she kinda accepts tt i can just go down on thurs and fri! Hurray..i'll continue to work hard!! :D

Hope tt I can manage my time well enough to juggle both studies and work. Knew a lot of ppl had managed to do it! But it seems ages since I manage both! But definitely, I'll persevere and work hard towards my aims in doing all these!

I got a new specs! Yippee..thanx to ying's advance, will repay her bck as soon as i get my pay!

Lastly, the following stuff are dedicated to my zinc! Finally saw her crush last wk!! I was so excited when i see him in far east..ppl who know me sld noe why! Well, I had e same feelings as zinc's frenz..he is not all tt gorgeous but defintely cute!! So jia you zinc! :P

Gotta get back to proj..looking 4ward to e end of this LM proj! haa..or sld i say, all projs?

Non-words expressions

Well..I spoke about 50 sentences today! Haha..feel much better todae, not tt suffocated! e ppl dere r all really pretty nice too! Well..just hope that they will really ask me to go back to work next wk! 'Crossing my fingers'
Ms Kwan's hse is really very messy..and had been for the years that I knew her! But..its just her style la! Or sld I say tt its attributed to her bro? Anyway..I finally know how to post pics! Thanks to Ms Kwan! So well..my posts wont be so full of words in e future!
Don't feel like going home tonite so i'm in Kwan's hse now, den going to meet chen xiao xiao to eat prata and yum cha! so 'uncle' sia! Praying hard tt I won meet him dere.. anyway, even if we really meet, he will be completely turned off by my specky face!! haha
Tml is e dae for me to realli start my proj! hai.. had been saying this for a few days but was just too tired! So..no matter wat, I must do all e work tml b4 goin out! :D go gO Go!!

These are such super short and stupid thoughts but just feel like writing down sum stuff using her Mac..hee!

Today is the one and only day that I think I spoke less than 20 sentences. OMG! i really cannot believe it..i feel so suffocated sia! Other than that, work today was quite smooth-sailing though I think i'm a bit slow but after some consolations from dearie kuek, I felt much better! Tml will be a better day and I will try to speak 30 sentences. hee!

Well..i dreamt of milopeng tt nite!Here goes..my sis and I lost our way back to office aft lunch (my 1st day of work) den they were riding those stunt bikes and they actually send us back le! of cos, my sis was riding wif her fav nic la..haha! (Zinc: Look, I treat u so well even when i'm in my dreamland..haa!)

Recently, i had some few weird encounters. Jurong really got a lot of weird ppl. Two nonsensical aunties and 2 weird uncles. eee...

No 1 weird auntie in the LIBRARY - I seen her for three days in a row! (Refer to my prev entry!) Firstly, allow me to describe her! she seems to be in her 40s..has a weird attitude and body language and she's super bored! Her bored signs are super obvious. she asked ying 2 step aside from the machines (when dere's nobody ard except us), not to put our things near e other machine, standing beside me when i'm copying to make sure tt I won spoil her machines when she is spoiling it by keep 'un-standby' the machines! Ying was super pissed. We sld had say sumthin rude! :P

No2 weird auntie in JEC - Ying wanted to change $1 coins to turn e toys and she (e neoprint shop auntie) dun wan exchange, lamenting that its not her machines. So I decided to try and say tt I wan take neoprints so she changed for me. and since that the shop has no business, she keep making sure that I really will take e neoprints! But I quickly sneaked out and went 2 another shop 2 wait for ying to de done wif her 'turning'..Guess wat? e super free auntie went 2 e food court and all places to look for me and when she saw me. She chided me for lying to her and blah blah blah...haha..and evil me just deny! oops...but comeon, its juts a few coins..I din steal it le!

No3 uncle asked me for money when I was on e way home (alone and dark..scary!)

No4 uncle just keep stopping each time we stopped and walk at the same pace wif us! Argh!

My pa was telling me tt he might be goin 2 thailand wif my mum next month..sayin tt its cheap and stuff..but lata den I realise tt nxt mth is my mum's bdae! haa...papa..I can see thru ya motives so easily! But I really feel that my pa is so sweet la..even if he cant afford much, he will always do sumthin sweet for my mum during her bdae and vdae! But e bad thing is he doesnt wan to bring me!! but wat to do, it's his lil own celebration wif my mum!! Guess even though my dad has a big belly and has a short/bad temper, he's still my ideal type of e ONE!

Win already lo! U are always the most reasonable person around! I cant talk to kuek in front of you becos I will be disturbing. I have to surpress my laughter just becos you hav to sleep. Please count the times that you talk and laugh aloud in the middle of the nite, either on the fone or at the tv! I am unreasonable? please speak for yourself 1st b4 u comment on others!

Went to the library to photocopy sum leadership notes for LM. Guess wat, i accidentally tore e side of a few pgs of this bk that is soooo new while photocopyin! I feel sooo bad for the bk. The photocopyin auntie bought me tapes to tape it back and keep lamenting that it's ok and saying that i'm very nice to paste them back. Come on, the book is so new! Who can bear to leave a new book without its several edges.

Anyway..just realised that I had photocpied the wrong chapter of the bk! Argh, how dumb can I be?? Well..tt means i'll have to make a trip to e library tml aft meeting shihui and aft collecting e illegal photocopies of EG!

Irresponsible man

This type of man is the worst kind of all human beings. They are horrible, incorrigible and just deserved to die and disappear from the face of the earth. Ladies, we will never know how the person is really like till we get together with them and breathe the same air together. It will be blind at first but the ugly truth will reveal sooner or later. I'm downright sad for my fren now. Not pissed or watever, just a mixture of sadness and disappointment! Yesterday, I suddenly had the urge to contact my fren, A to see how was she doing. I remembered that a few wks ago that she was having some problems wif her bf. Thus, I just want to make sure she's alrite. Hai..but the reply wasnt good at all! The irresponsible man (or should I say boy) had been cheating behind her back all the while. To think that A had been sacrificing all along, borne him a child and waiting patiently for the day that he will grad and marry her! What kind of shit is this? He had completely ruin A's whole life. Some people might think that I'm being ridiculous for being upset but I just simply cant stand that this can happen and worse, to my good friend. Some might think that A is naive and should have an abortion. But A is not such a cruel person to let go of her flesh and blood. I know that she is a brave person and might be able to live on by herself but dis is just not deserving for her at all. I hate this guy who had been faking all the while, deceiving my fren, her family and friends. To think that I was hoping to go to their wedding since they had been together since 6 years ago. Guess I am also not somebody who is good at accessing others. There's nothing I can do to help A, nothing at all and I feel so useless. I can only stand by her side to give her moral support. She who is so headstrong, wont accept my financial help [though I dun have much too..:(]! I really couldnt imagine her days ahead where she need to fight to survive with her child. I can only say that I really admire her for being this strong. I will never be as capable, strong and optimistic as her. I just wish that someone who is true to her will appear to take care of her and accept her child. As for the useless, irresponsible idiot, I hope that he will get his retributions. I definitely believe in karma.

Now I just hope that all my other frenz will not meet this breed of man and find their own happiness or else please just live on alone for their rest of their lives. It's better than suffering under the hands of these men. Better open our eyes wide and stand up for ourselves!

Anyway, to Ms Huang, please pardon me for my tactlessness. I really dont mean what i said in the library. Hai..I better keep my mouth shut or go thru my words in my mind before shooting my mouth off. Please forgive me, I am really sorry, woman!

New job, new fears

I'm soo happy that I have a job! Hurray!!! Thanks to my bestie kuek, muackz! This means that i will have extra income and able to save enough to go visit kuek or HC..haha! Mum wont feel so tight with $$ as well. Along with that, fears also surfaced. Fears that I'll flop at the job as I worry that my performance won be on par as kuek, or even at least to the I/C's expectations! Scary scary... That leads to a 'morninmare' just right b4 I woke up 2 watch e superband repeat tele! i dreamt that I reported on time (woo..hengz!) but i wasnt given anything to do so I just went home becos I feel that I am useless! The next minute, somebody from e office called me to go back to work! haha.. it's so dumb! I will cross my fingers and wish for the best! I will be extra super hardworking too!! I promise! so..please, please, I hope i can hold on to the job! Please, its my only wish for now!

Anyway, yest's fireworks was soo spectacular, much much better than tues's! There will always be some uncle or di di who will be super exaggerated about the whole display, super noisy with their loud commentary about their feelings about the fireworks and with all the 'appropriate' woos, haas and SHOUTS! At first, it was very funny but it became very irritating. Ai yo..can these people just relax and watch the display although their woos and haas made the whole thing much interesting but come on, shi ke er zhi!

Went to turn e 'vending machines' and BBC spent more than $20 on 4 different pooh's family characters. Well..think she's starting this new hobby! I think i'll go buy the mini vending machines set too..hee!!

After lots of play and no work dis whole wk, I better get back to work now or my head will surely be chopped off. Furthermore, with a new job, I better buck up and work harder! Jia youz, Gambadae, Acha acha!!!!

A piece of fish tt is not meant for me?

haa..dis post is for Ms Kwan. HappY Bdae to you!! That piece of fish is meant for you le! Happy? but make me paiseh lo! Hee..but it's fine, as long as you are happy! Well, I guess I should be more careful in front of people that I'm not too close to! You never know what they mean..

Anyway, I kinda like the fireworks atnosphere on Tues though its kinda slow. My fav part of the display is of the few golden starry 'flags' hanging in the sky! Woo.. magnificent! Did something embarrassing to my HC's VIP. Come on, I really dont mean it and I know how you felt after my juice incident. Well..here's a big SORRY to you! haha..I dun wanna lose a fren becos of it! Well..Looking forward to tonite's fireworks and e chill out session wif tut kiddos. Hope it wont be too expensive but it's definitely worth a try :)

Recently, I found out a new disquality of myself. I'm super terrible at arcade gaming. Think arcades always earn $$ from gaming idolts like me! Anyway, dun care, I still want to continue wasting $$..Haha!

National Day always holds a special place in my heart. My eyes will tear during the end when everybody sing all those patriotic songs, seeing LKY eyes that are full of history and what he had done to our home. Guess i'm just always full of these kind of idiotic emotions. I'm lucky that i was involved in NDP before. I had fun, knew great ppl, and dis day will always hold special memories for this group of frenz. Was so happy to receive Ros's sms and yes, I really missed those days! Think that it's really a waste and wrong decision for them to tear down the national stadium. There are just too many memories for lotsa over there!

Anyway, i'll like to wish singapore, a belated happy bdae and hope that all Singaporeans will become happier, be safe and that our country will continue to prosper! *winks*

Dis post seems kinda disorganised sia but dun care la. Just penning down my various major thoughts of the past few days.. haha!

Motto Learnt : By not taking every single thingy to heart, it will make myself less miserable and self-conscious

I love to slack! You know like really just slack by lying down on my bed, staring up at the ceiling, reading books and mags, or irritating my family members. ooH…it’s a life I love! Well..cos it means I can spend some time with them. After watching click, this seems evidently more important. Just like what ah fu had said, I really teared.
Anyway, on sat, had a mad rush from going 2 bugis (mos wif caiyilin) 2 my pri sch mate’s bdae den rushin to BBC’s hse 2 have the online bdae celebration (opening all e 21 prezzies, singing bdae songs, crapping, luffing at silly things and much more) with ah kuek. Was really happy that kuek was touched. The top five things that she liked (in no particular order):
1) her bdae carebear (a new addition 2 her collection)
2) e ma de zhong (e naked bod tt she love e bez!)
3) Our photos (though she sae it’ll be better with our greetings but, woman, tt’s ur homework!!)
4) E biscuits (haa…especially jo’s biscults (e one tt she claims tt she always bring during our tp days 4 us to eat when nobody rems eating dem) (Jo, better rem to buy for us 4 our nxt meeting!)
5) SEEING ALL OF US GATHERING AT BBC’S HSE JUST TO CELEBRATE WITH HER!!

Well, guess its worth all e rush. And to e sistas angels, we had made it once again! Good job babes!! Well, better do a good job for the nxt and last angel too ah *winks* haha!
It’s gonna be a free wk dis wk man! haa..a 7 days national day celebration!! Yeah, but no slacking! Gonna watch e fireworks tonite, national day lunch wif cousins, bdae celebrations wif ms Kwan, meet up wif shimin (yea!), meet wif tut kiddos 2 go 2 e cine’s games café as shihui suggested (hope all can make it or else its only me tt is gonna get e 1st ride frm her lo.. So you two better come ar!! haha)
And in between all these, I better get some quality work done for LM or else I’m really gonna get into deep shit. Woo..its gonna be due in around 2 wks time! But to my ah huh peeps, we surely can make it once again one though we seems to be still lost here and dere. But well, it’s not the first time we are like dis rite, so don’t fret!

e 1001 suay esp on 7/8/06

I'm so damn pissed yesterday!!! It was like another suay day of my life but it was like real suay just at the start of the day!! Initially, I was so happy that I can finally eat e ai xin mac breakie with BBC b4 class starts! (Thanks babe!) Then was commenting on how great the toast, egg was as compared to other branches. Then here comes, the evil creature, the new 'lock out' orange juice cup! I cant poke my straw thru the only available hole so I tried opening the cap which is well..so tight and locked just as it's name implies! So, as usual, the violent and kan cheong me just turned e cap with lotsa strength which causes the juice to spill. Luckily it's only on the table! Seeing that it had been such a tiring process just to drink the juice, I decided not to cap it back! That’s e worst decision I ever made! Just as I was preparing to go to class, folding my flimsy jacket and stuff, I turn and hit the cup and whoomp, all e juices just fall onto me!!!!!! My whole shirt and half of my jeans is drenched with my beloved drink! I just sat that monotonously till BBC come back with e stolen serviettes from the WC that she planned to use as her coaster 4 her coffee! Well, it became the towel to wipe the table!! After that I just went to clean up, splashing lots of water on my shirt, pulling up my shirt to dry it under the hot dryer, irregardless of the ppl inside WC! (totally without any image, argh!) Wetting my whole jeans so that the water stain in e middle wont seems so awkward!! Arghh!! Here goes my whole day!!! Well, I think I better stick to my non-breakie routine. Regardless if it will make my brain function better or make me slimmer! I wasn't even concentrating on my BB class at all. All I can think of is the orange smell on me! The one and only limited edition perfume in da world!
Anyway, for moi dis thousand and one suay esp, I will like to thank a few people! Firstly, to BBC, thanks for buying the breakie and be a cleaner with me during the whole breakfast session! Secondly, Ms kwan for telling me that at least I din spill BBC's coffee onto my shirt and only luff when u met me aft that instead of on the fone! Thirdly, Ah fu for bringing me ya nice cyan shirt (haa, choosing one that is not too tight for me)! Fourthly, my mum and sis who just couldn't stop laughing at me! Lastly, to Mac, thanks a lot for making my day soooo eventful!

PS to Mac: Please do change your packaging as I think that there are a lot of other stupid consumers like me out there. Furthermore, it’s early in the morning, we the consumers won't want to ponder so much over a stupid juice cup, we just want to have a nice breakie to start off our day nicely!! Or else, just change to a thicker straw that can be easily poked through tt crossed hole!

I really don't wish that this will happen to another being out there as it's really a bad way to start a nice Monday! :P

August 5. 14:26 Depression is finally hitting me!

After reading Ms lim's blog, I suddenly got this enthusiasm to start penning down my thoughts. Well, it may also be cos it's a special day for my bestie kuek. Happy 21st B'dae! Sometimes I feel that I do not take e initiative 2 know people well enough. Is it because I can't be bothered? Or it's just that I feel that there are enough people around me that I love. Isn't this kinda an introvert thinking..haa..den moi LM test must be all wrong and it's a Huge wrong cos I almost obtained a perfect score for being an extrovert! Well, that doesn't matter as I feel that every person has an inner personality that is not reveal to others, even their closest pals.
Had been kinda weird since kuek left. Guess I'm just too used to her being around. Maybe its time for me to open up to others. Anyway..i'm glad that the digital voices that I heard had not reappeared! Thank god! I really dun wan to admit myself into IMH b4 I drive others crazy to join me dere..haha. Please dun come back again!
I hate it when people are indecisive though I cant say that I'm a super decisive person. But come on, there are things that can be easily settled without wasting unnecessary energy and time. But..well, as Ms lim and lotsa of others commented, I'm just someone who is easily kan cheong.
I will call instead if smsing people for things that are important. Waiting for a sms reply is ridiculous to me! Well..guess I'm not a very tech savvy person. However, sorry 2 those that I always seem to miss ya calls. Guess u all were looking for me urgently cos of sum IMPT things!
Guess I inherited all these frm my dad & granddad. Take for example, now! They are now well prepared, waiting patiently for my biao ge 2 come pick them up to go for his gal's mth old party! They will say that they are being punctual but I feel that it's the kan cheong spirit! Upon reading this, lots might be shocked! Haa..well, I'm sorry but I'm not dis type of 'kan cheong'. I'm always late, I must say. But I had been trying hard not to recently. Well..But you know la, things always seem to crop up. What can I say? I have a cock up life with weird happenings all the time. It might seems like excuses to some people but seriously, it's really true that I always had weird encounters. Well, to my uni mates, they will feel that I'm improving from being in class after ten to appearing a few seconds before ten! Hurray! Well, but the next day, I will revert to the after ten ritual! But I promise I will really try hard!
On Friday, I saw my 'best fren' after just commenting that he had not been eyeing on us recently and its signs of relief as I really dun wan to see his stupid face! Well..knowing me, I blurted out, oh shit once I see him. Guess what, he said in Hokkien 'seen a ghost'. dinno, ah fu & me was just shocked and start lamenting that yeayea, we r the 'ghost'. But what the hell, the more I think of it, I was just pissed that he said that! Its either he was commenting on our ultra shocked faces or he's really saying 'we r the ghost' But whatever is it, WAR IS ON! So to my sistas in sch, we better develop a plan to counter attack him! (haa..This is sooo childlish!)

Truthfully, I feel better in days after writing all this heartfelt garbage! I guess I will be writing often. Well..This might be another side of me that is slowly evolving. Zinc, don't be so shocked la! I'm fine, I just need somewhere to vent my thoughts. Maybe you sld start showing me ya thoughts instead of guarding them with the pathetic black ribbon & red book so dat we can understand each other better!