Sunshine after e rain. Eveything was just a mistake! haa..I think too much. I must be less sensitive and temperless in e future. Anyway..i really wanna post all my bdae celebrations pics and thoughts but i'm so lazy to slowly save ind pics one by one! Well..by the time i save those pics, think i can post e xmas celebration photos. i'll upload nxt wk aft dis hectic xmas week.

I'll like 2 give the biggest THANK YOU to everyone who had remembered my birthday. It really means a lot to me =)

Especially to the special ones who had celebrated in PERSON with me on 14 Dec..

E KTV session

AdIno (Thanx for ya xmas card too! it's so pretty!)

Ah fu (Thanx for e special handmade card (love it!) and my 1st CAKE earring)

Ah Say (Thanx for the present u shared wif ah fu and dino)

* KTV was great fun wif u guys! mUst go together often but sad tt ah say isnt too into ktv..

E not-so-great dinner @ Essential Brews wif ATC gang

Shimin aka Chen Xiao Xiao

Daphne Kwan

Joyceee

Why did i say that it was not so great? Cos this 3 babes was just dying to get me home wif all sort of reasons. (Borrowing of vcds, wanting to get Decolgen, my fav pills) Was thinking tt it was weird that they want to get home early as they are not tt kind of ppl who will but didnt think much as they all seems to be tried wif work and sch. But... THANKS for acting and coordinating so well with the surprise gang in my hse.

Surprise Gang at BLK 1_ _, Jurong East @ 11pm

Papa

Mamee

Lao Ying

Fu Ren Jie

Ah Kuek

Ying

ah Ching

This gang waited for me to get home and i really thank them for their patience as i was really trying to stall time wif the ATC peeps so as not to get home earli.

I was truly veri surprised and super happy to be able to blow out e candles and made my wishes for my 'adulthood' minutes bef 12.

Thanks a lot to e 4 of you. I 'heart' YOU alll...........:)

I should be happily typing my happy thoughts for my 21st bdae. But instead, i had never felt worse than ever. I dunno how to start but it's all caused by my still unchanged childlish, unreasonable, untactful temper, character even after hitting the big 21. I should have just controlled my temper, dun blurt out e nonsense and everything will end with a perfect ending. My birthday would had been perfect, i would be happy and they will be as well. However, becos of my short temper, all these had become a big IMPOSSIBILITY! Was reflecting on my way home, should i just call kuek to apologise? But does that turn things over or make things worse? And i reasoned that there's no point in doing that as i had already spoiled everything. Nothing, NOTHING can remove the hurt i instilled in kuek, HC and ying, after the lots and lots of effort they put into for my bdae and also, their presence throughout my life all these years.

Truly disappointed..from HC..yes i noe. This pricked deep into my heart. But i guess, its not as deep for them, especially ah kuek.

Come to think of it, I seems to be always hurting ah kuek. On e few occasions that i had flared, it seems to be always targeted towards her. I know it's wrong but being so close to her, i always have no reserves and qualms abt speaking out real crudely with her. Why must i always hurt the one closest to me?

I do not want to give any excuses for myself. I know I sld had understand the facts first but i was just too hasty. However, i really dunno what was going on. Before e movie, they had been pushing my name ard for the xmas present exchange. I know its a joke as i'm always picky. Thus, the person tt need 2 buy my present will have a major headache. I dunno who is it but i presume it was kuek who need to buy for me. And conincidentally, I was to buy for her. Once i picked her name, I was ecstatic that i can buy for her aft everything she and her family had done for me! and especially for it was for HER! & was contemplating what to buy for her as she gt almost everything and the little time left to buy. However, even knowin that it was just our usual joke (not wanting to be e one to buy my present), i still feel kinda sad as i was so eager to get e xmas gift for her and for the others as well. But i din say anythin and just luff it off. I should have just done the same thing when they mentioned again aft e movie. Too bad, the spoiler me just couldnt keep my damn mouth close and the damage was done with me saying, ' i know u dun wan to buy for me and ....' i forgot what else i say but i know i had been unreasonable.

I'm laughing at myself now. They sure won have any probs buying anything for me as they already bought 21 for me. What more can I ask for friends like them, organising surprises, buying e 21 presents, going to the zoo? They had truly wasted their time, effort and energy on someone as lousy as me.

To be honest, i am really picky bout stuff. i got great specifications bout things i like. It's not the price or brand. I dun go for that. It's just that i just need to have a good feeling bout that something. The thing is, nobody know, that even if the thing doesnt suit me, i never ever throw them away, i treasure them as it represents each and every fren and occasion. Even if i dun use it, it doesnt mean that i hate it, or maybe yes, i dun like it but the thought and person behind it make all the difference. I just need to improve on my initial response. My initial response maybe disappointing but i'll be truly thankful for having the present but it will had been too late as the giver would had been hurt by me.

Anyway, going back, i being so straightforward and them who understand me so well, will know from my obvious expression if i like or dislike somethin. So ..after all the years of presents exchanging, they had understand my pickiness and thus, the JOKE. I don't mind being the butt of jokes as it's really my own fault for being so picky and truthful in my expressions. But i just cant help showing my real emotions but i definitely had been trying to master the art of showing one perfect expression. Nevertheless, they still can see thru me at times as i cant help showing my true emotions in front of these best buddies.

Whether or not anybody believes, I had felt real bad immediately after shooting off.

I had remorsed and i apologise for what i had said. I hope tt i can have the chance to make it up but think the chances are nearing zero as they might not even want to see my stupid face or hear my dumb voice again. Writing this is not in the aim of hoping for your forgiveness but it's to serve as a constant reminder.

Happy days are gone after the destruction.

Hope that everyone will have a great xmas and have one less lousy friend like me.

Refreshing? Nodding hard? Haha..i am! Wanted something different from my usual green one and to my own surprise, i choose this skin ! Might be a bit too cute but just bear wif it! i'll change it once i'm in e mood 2 change to my long awaited doraemon's! :D

Anyway, think i forgot to mention something real 'shakening', Ms Kuek Ah Rong is back! (kinda outdated la, she had been back close to 3 wks!) She gave all of us a great surprise and she made me lie so as to get off work and to acc her on her 1st day back! But wat to do, she's my 'best friend' and anyway, i'm way too excited to concentrate on e work if I really did went back to work. Interested parties, please view www.xanga.com/maameemoo to read bout her surprise tactics!

Ah kuek, WELCOME BACK once again! Hahahaha.. This time round, we will do whatever u wan before u go back next yr once again :( (:

How I wish tt everybody can be bald! We dun need to worry bout haircuts and which hairstylists to trust! I hate this procedure which i need to go thru almost every 3 mths as I really cant stand feeling my hair near my neck. (So irritating and itchy!) Tot I had found a good hairstylist aft e prev dye and cut a few mths back (which i was rather satisfied with) But alas.. it wasnt the case yest. My hair is disastrous nw! I look like a kid with a weird hairdo that is too flat... ahhh..KILL ME PLs! Maybe I shouldnt had contributed too much comments bout his haircutting techniques and asking him to give me a new hairstyle. Well..an advice tt I must write down to remind myself for my next haircut! [Never, NEVER ask for a new hairstyle when ya face aint tt pretty!!] I always try to remind myself this as it highly applies to me! But I just dun learn my lessons. I just want changes even though it always turn out BAD!

However, it might also be my low confidence and not of the hairstylist. Whatever!..in 3 mths time, i'm going to make my rounds to ask for recommendations again [or I'll go back to e same guy again? :( ] To be honest, I had really tried quite a num of hairstylists, ranging from real exp ones to cheap ones. The exp ones may make me feel tt my hair looks kinda nice cos of e price but i'll always experience post cut dissonance cos of e hefty price! Cheap ones are so-so as aft a few times, they will not be able to produce exciting changes anymore! Somebody tell me! What am i gonna do? If its my big head or ugly face prob, there's nothing I can do for nw. So guess, bald is the answer rite? :

I'm just praying hard that my hair will grew thicker by next wk! haa..will try some ways to make it grow faster! I won want to look sooooo ugly nxt wk. May this be my 1st wish to be granted!